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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
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 Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 06:40:26 AM
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A very long Sunday - Ben - a twin baby goat declined the last couple of days and not really sure why.. He started to take a bottle and was having a go of it but I had a feeling that he was not long for this world. His mother had stopped engaging with him on Wednesday so I watched him closely. I brought him into the house, in the front of the space heater and warmed bottles. However, at 2:45 I knew the worst was upon us.
Wrapping him in warm towels we sat and spoke softely to each other. With snuggs, rubs and tons of kisses I comforted him till the end. It was peacefull and without pain but still the tears ran for hours. After all these years more then 14 years under my belt this is never easy but when I started this farm I promised to all my four legged family charges that if I could I would do all for them but if it was not enough they would never pass alone. A bitter sweet promise but that is the part of this life that comes with the joys..
I hope you might send a prayer out to the shy for my sweet kind Ben.
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
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Fiddlehead Farm
True Blue Farmgirl
4562 Posts
Diane
Waupaca
WI
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 06:47:31 AM
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Grace,
I am so sorry for the loss of Ben. One of the hardest things that comes along with being a steward to the animals. A little prayer out to the universe for sweet Ben and you.
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sherrye
True Blue Farmgirl
3775 Posts
sherry
bend in the high desert
oregon
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 06:50:22 AM
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oh grace, so very sad. i am sorry for you and ben. sending hugs love and a prayer for you and ben. sherrye
the learn as we go silk purse farm
farm girl #1014
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Annika
True Blue Farmgirl
5602 Posts
Annika
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 07:02:20 AM
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*HUGS* Grace, I've had to do the same thing with many animals over the years and it never does get easier. I'm so sorry that Ben didn't make it. It's so hard and sad when the little one's go =(
Love and hugs
Annika
Farmgirl & sister #13
Palouse Prairie Girls Chapter
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kristin sherrill
True Blue Farmgirl
11303 Posts
kristin
chickamauga
ga
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 07:11:54 AM
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Garce, I am so sorry. I love that you were there for him. That makes all the difference. When we lost that one little turkey poult, my hubby and granddaughter Kansas held it in a warm towel and sang to her til she was gone. It was so sad. Then we went out in the garden and burried her. Also made a little stone with her name and the date. You are such a great farm momma.
Kris
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FebruaryViolet
True Blue Farmgirl
4810 Posts
Jonni
Elsmere
Kentucky
USA
4810 Posts |
Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 07:17:40 AM
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Grace, I haven't many words. I'm so sorry for wee Ben, but I am more glad than ever that thse four legged wonders have you for their mum and guardian. He is gamboling in heaven, shining down on you today and always.
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 07:25:41 AM
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Thank you so much ladies for the kind words, prayers and sharing - I knew if I told Ben's passing here I would be sharing it with women who understood the love and pain we go thru caring for our sweet one's. It never gets easier but at least my skill level has grown by leaps and bounds and have saved more then lost... It is always a reminder to me that none of us are grant the next day and so we need to live this day to its fullest and if we aren't then we need to do all we can to change it...
Again, thank you so much for taking the time to read Ben's story and to send kind thoughts.. Blessings and Hugs to you all..
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
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maggie14
True Blue Farmgirl
6784 Posts
Hannah
Washington
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 11:18:38 AM
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Sending hugs and prayers to you Grace!
Hugs,
Hannah
Farmgirl sister #1219!
"Lifes not about the breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away."
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janiee
True Blue Farmgirl
820 Posts
Janie
Shawnee
Oklahoma
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 11:45:20 AM
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DEAR grace, sending hugs and love to you and yours...what a great way to "go" with all that love around you. thank you for being you!
janie
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Blessed in Colorado
True Blue Farmgirl
6681 Posts
Debbie L.
Oregon
USA
6681 Posts |
Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 12:01:59 PM
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To me the greatest gift we can give our animals who are our family is to be with them in there final days. Loving, hugging and whispering in their ear that they are loved. My heart goes out to you Grace, I know how hard it is, Ben was Blessed to have you. I will of course keep you in my prayers. I lost my 16 year old rescue shelter dog 3 years ago she died in my arms as I told her over and over how much I loved her. Writing this I am crying like a baby as I still miss her so. Thank you for sharing and I am so happy we have all these farm girls all over the world who care.
Farm girl Hugs,
Debbie
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LeighErica
True Blue Farmgirl
306 Posts
Erica
PA
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 12:12:34 PM
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| Dearest Grace, thinking of you as you let go of this very special animal. It is so emotionally painful to lose something you love so dearly and I know from your heartfelt words that you kept your promise to love & cherish till the end. Know that your sweet baby goat is in a better place. Praying you find peace and comfort in the days ahead. Hugs, Erica |
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texdane
Farmgirl Legend Chapter Leader Chapter Guru
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Nicole
Sandy Hook
CT
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 2:28:33 PM
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Grace, Bless your heart. Poor little Ben, I know he was happy you were with him.
Nicole
Farmgirl Sister #1155
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HealingTouch
True Blue Farmgirl
3448 Posts
Darlene
Kunkletown
Pa
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 3:01:34 PM
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Crying like a baby too! Prayers for your comfort. It never gets easier because we love! That's what breaks our hearts.
Be Blessed,
Darlene
Sister 1922
God first, everything else after!
When Satan's knocking at your door, just say "Jesus will you get that for me?"
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 7:01:19 PM
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Oh Debbie I am so sorry for your loss - your sweet dog had such a special place in you life and heart I know that pain. I have my sweet Kasha (12 year old Great Pry) who has lived longer then expected so each day I see her up and standing I feel I have won the lottery... My heart is with you and your loss.
To all the other wonderful ladies who have taken the time to share their prayers, kind words and love with me I want you to know that your sharing has made me get thru the day with breaking down and wanting to throw in the towel. I have so few family left in this world and most of my friends can not even begin to understand my life on this farm that I feel a drift at times like this. I can never put into words how much your connection means to me and for that I THANK YOU with all my heart. You really make a difference...
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
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laurentany
True Blue Farmgirl
3259 Posts
Laurie
Patchogue
NY
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 7:38:34 PM
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Grace, SO sorry for the loss of Ben. I am glad that you were there for him all the way through his short stay here on earth.
{{HUGS}}
Laurie
Farmgirl Sister#1403
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.. |
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prariehawk
True Blue Farmgirl
2914 Posts
Cindy
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 8:29:24 PM
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So sorry about your loss. Your kindness and compassion will be rewarded someday.
Cindy
"Vast floods can't quench love, no matter what love did/ Rivers can't drown love, no matter where love's hid"--Sinead O'Connor
"In many ways, you don't just live in the country, it lives inside you"--Ellen Eilers
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Joey
True Blue Farmgirl
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Joey
Gulf Coast
FL
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 9:08:07 PM
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Oh Grace,
I am so sorry to hear about your loss of little Ben. It just tears at your heart. So glad that he had you there to love him "home." Sending you warm hugs. Joey
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ZenGoddess
True Blue Farmgirl
613 Posts
Cindy
MO
USA
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Posted - Apr 04 2011 : 9:21:00 PM
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Grace its people like you that animals really need. we are only care takers, heart-soul- mind and body he came into your life and left an impression that you wont forget .... that makes his life count for alot. Saying prayers for you all, we are in kidding season too and its hard when we feel that we have lost. He touched you and your family and took your love with him on the rest of his journey.
To all things there is a reason even though it may be unclear to us.
Please don't give up .. When you get up in the morning and go out to do your chores, you'll see the reasons to keep going : ))
Hugs,
ZenGoddess/Southernplum
My life goal is to Simply - Simplify my life.
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walkinwalkoutcattle
True Blue Farmgirl
1675 Posts
Megan
Paint Lick
KY
USA
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Posted - Apr 05 2011 : 02:35:45 AM
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Grace, that was so wonderful for you to be there for little Ben. Prayers sent!
Farmgirl #2879 :)
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gypsy goat
True Blue Farmgirl
673 Posts
mary jo
michigan
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Posted - Apr 05 2011 : 07:43:10 AM
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oh i am so sorry-but how sweet of you to stay with him and give him the tender affection that he needed. i hope that you are doing ok,i know i would have a hard time with that as well.sening you a big farmgirl((( hug)))
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alpacamama
Farmgirl at Heart
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Megan
Snohomish
Washington
USA
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Posted - Apr 05 2011 : 09:43:16 AM
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| am new to the farmgirl sisterhood but old to the sisterhood of critter mommas. It's so hard to lose a little one. I don't know if you ever get used to it. Prayers and hugs to you, Ben and the rest of your herd. |
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Apr 05 2011 : 10:43:44 AM
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Megan I welcome you to MJF and I thank you for taking the time for such kindness. I must say last night was a low point - between not sleeping for so long, the wind coming back (wind - more like tornado strength) and walking into the barn and not seeing Ben's sweet face as I peel back the barn door - made me crumble again. You would think after 15 years I would have shaken this off but I think I need to learn how to be kinder to my heart and head. I did go thru your lovely postings after the 3 am bottle feeding and found strength in all your words.
Again, I can not tell you how much it means to me that you take the time to share and pray with me... I include you all in my daily blessings and saying thank you just does not seem like enough...
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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Blessed in Colorado
True Blue Farmgirl
6681 Posts
Debbie L.
Oregon
USA
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Posted - Apr 05 2011 : 1:07:53 PM
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Hi Grace, thank you for your kind words, I keep you in my prayers. Yes, the wind was terrible here in Florissant, but I think yours was worse.
Hang in there and give extra love to all your other farm animals.
Farm girl Hugs,
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katalind
True Blue Farmgirl
177 Posts
Kathy
Chapin
SC
USA
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Posted - Apr 06 2011 : 12:44:00 PM
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I'm so sorry for your loss, things like this is never easy.
Sending a prayer your way. |
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amomfly
True Blue Farmgirl
658 Posts
Angie
LaGrange
IN
USA
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Apr 06 2011 : 8:30:49 PM
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Ladies you have been so sweet and loving. It has truly helped. Today it was really needed because this afternoon my Grand Dame of the farm - Ebony passed in her sleep. She was 19 years yound this year and she spent 15 years with me - so we had such a bond... I only hope that when it is my time I go the same way.. I knew this would be my last year with her because she never pushed a baby away (Wynonna) so I had been preparing myself. So as I said goodbye to her tonight I knew that she understood how much I had loved her and that I would take great care of her little one...
It has been a long week and after the 10 pm bottle to Wynonna I think I will make me a stiff drink. Again, thank you all for your wonderful words, prayers and kindness.
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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Barnyard Buddies: Passed away in my arms |
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