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Barnyard Buddies:  When I was on my knees  |
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oldbittyhen
True Blue Farmgirl
1511 Posts
tina
quartz hill
ca
USA
1511 Posts |
 Posted - Jun 15 2011 : 7:30:47 PM
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Let go with peace my dear Grace, and your Sugar will too in his time, when he knows that you will be alright, and yes, I've had animals hang on way to long, and I realized they were doing it for me, I had to let them know I would miss them, but I would be OK...
"Knowlege is knowing that a tomato is a fruit, Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad" |
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 15 2011 : 8:09:10 PM
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Tina we are on the same wave length - I have sat by many bedsides with humans who just could not seem to leave because they were concerned how those they left behind would cope. I do much prayer and healing work on just such a plane and so I do so with Sugar. There is such a physical thing as a ralley - every living creature does it and during those times there might be false hope but for me I know that there comes the down slide. A dear friend of mine who is a American Medicine Women taught me a mediation to ease the passing both for the one leaving and those left behind. It is within that time my heart is set free to be with those who have gone before and to know they will be there when I cross over...
New baby is playing up a storm in the girls barn, in face, Miss Marple is trying to get some rest but the little one is having none of it. Great to see such energy and passion.
Tina I think we have so much in common it is great to type with you.
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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walkinwalkoutcattle
True Blue Farmgirl
1675 Posts
Megan
Paint Lick
KY
USA
1675 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 03:21:43 AM
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Congrats! Life's little blessings and surprises are so priceless. Enjoy that little baby!!!
Farmgirl #2879 :)
Starbucks and sushi to green fried tomatoes and corn pudding-I wouldn't change it for the world.
www.cattleandcupcakes.blogspot.com
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 06:33:19 AM
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Thanks so much Megan - she sure is!! I put a new picture of her up on the blog.
News about Sugar - well we made it thru the night with no big events other then he loves to lay on my poor legs to snuggle but I would give him the world. Then early this morning he demanded that we go outside and I watched him wonder slowly and I mean slowly thru the tall Buffalo Grass nibbling on the tender blades. I went to make the bottles as he enjoyed the morning sunrise. So I give thanks for what we have today.
The picture of the wee one is to die for - naming contest will be put together today but first I have to get thru another roof quote...
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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Blessed in Colorado
True Blue Farmgirl
6675 Posts
Debbie L.
Oregon
USA
6675 Posts |
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sherrye
True Blue Farmgirl
3775 Posts
sherry
bend in the high desert
oregon
USA
3775 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 06:55:56 AM
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i have been keeping up with the posts. just not been posting much. i wanted to say i send hugs love and support to you grace.sometimes life is soooo big.. you do have a lot going on. i have always seen a great energy from you. i know your animals feel it. even with all your other worries you are there for your animals. so i send you a lifting hug. hope you have a good day. i hope your roofer has a good price for you. sherrye
the learn as we go silk purse farm
farm girl #1014
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wooliespinner
True Blue Farmgirl
1311 Posts
Linda
Manchester
Ohio
1311 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 07:37:18 AM
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Grace so glad for your little miracle furbaby........how cool is that. I love to hear stories that bring people back from the edge. It helps redirect our energies and calm our souls. Hugs and prayers for the other one. Take care.
Linda
Raspberry Run Farm
Nubian Dairy Goats |
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 08:13:13 AM
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Debbie thank you for the kind words and posting on my blog - I am having an issue trying to leave comments on other folks blogs - not sure what is going on.. Computers and I well we just never seem to talk the same language.
Sherrye - I have thinking about you so much and hopeing that answers are coming your way too. Love to talk off line if you wish but just know you never leave my thoughts and prayers. I thank you also for the lifting hug - sure am needing those...
Linda you so right about the redirect - I have been listening to inspirational tapes of folks who have come back from much worse then I and it seems to help but I admit I deal much better with big things then those tiny daily bites you get from the outside world. Folks who know me know that I am the best person to have when the big stuff happens, emergency to deal with, sick and injuried loved ones but it is those things that seem to be so everyday that wears on me and then takes me to a place I do not wish to be. So again, I thank all my MJ Farmgirls for the love, kind words and support. Being here by myself I sometimes forget there are others in the world who are walking the same walk.
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 11:45:24 AM
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Got to love my Sugar!!! When a roofing contract came this morning and we where walking the outside of the house I was not aware that Sugar was doing his guard thing... Out of nowhere came Sugar with his best impression of a mean billy he could mustard - he summoned up his energy and ran to charge at the guy... Mind you it still was slower then a top billy would do but it is the thought that counts. I stood in front of the guy and Sugar came to a stop, looked at me, I gave him a kiss on the nose and told him to go sit with Kasha. He walked back again like a turtle but with a sense of purpose. After the guy left I went and check on Sugar because that was a long way and at his warp speed that was a ton of energy expended. So my Old Goat still protects his Mommy.... He is such a sweet heart.
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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Alee
True Blue Farmgirl
22941 Posts
Alee
Worland
Wy
USA
22941 Posts |
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 5:08:06 PM
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Alee - normally they don't but I seem to have a gift I guess to keep them going. That is a great thing and then sometimes a sad thing. This evening he went and walked into the chicken coop which he has never done and sat down and made himself right at home. I think his eyesight is bad enough that he thought he had placed himself in the barn that he was in last night which is not his normal barn... Once I pointed out the mistake he followed me out of the coop and walked behind me to his new digs... The chickens are still gripping at me...
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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adnama
True Blue Farmgirl
171 Posts
inge
fargo
north dakota
USA
171 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 5:15:32 PM
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| Oh hon, my heart goes out to you. Having a friend like that for so long is both bittersweet and lovely. sometimes being brought to your knees is to allow you to be raised above and beyound the stuff that is ordinary to give you the grace to see what is extraordinary. Thinking of you and sending you as much strength to deal with lifes trials. be happy and healthy |
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 6:25:05 PM
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Thanks so very much Inge - Sugar just finished another apple and the wee one managed to get out of her pen and I had the pleasure and honor to snatch her up and hug all over that sweet girl. She loved it but Mom gave me some nasty looks... Then my sweet bottle kids gave me tons of play time, running around and hugs and snugs so again today I give thanks for those things I do have and except that for all of us there are hard times that we just have to say "UNCLE" and remind ourselves of all the hard stuff we already got thru and came out the other side better.
I spent a great deal of time today in prayer because my DIL friends husband had a nervous breakdown and she had to commit him today for help. They have two very small kids and the world just caved in for them. So if you might also say a prayer for their family I sure would appreciate it...
Again, I thank you for your kind words and support - I give thanks each day when I remember that I have such great support from my MJ sisters...
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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oldbittyhen
True Blue Farmgirl
1511 Posts
tina
quartz hill
ca
USA
1511 Posts |
Posted - Jun 16 2011 : 7:19:00 PM
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You are in my heart and soul Grace, and I have told my critters about your Sugar, so he's in their hearts and souls also, take care of yourself my friend, your furry kids depend on it...
"Knowlege is knowing that a tomato is a fruit, Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad" |
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 17 2011 : 05:12:23 AM
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As the Moon still is high in the sky I went to check on Sugar and he greeted me with his sweet smile and walked with me while the dew still hangs on the tall grass.
It was a busy night trying to keep the wee one in her pen with Mother and in the safety of the barn. She is such a busy body to meet and greet everthing that the farm offers. She even went over to the big billies pasture to see if she could meet her father. Instead she was greeted by the llama's who gave me their alarm call to tell me what was going on in the pasture. It was 2 am and as I go out with flashlight and nightgown there the llamas had her encircled till I scooped her up, gave her a good talking to and placed her back in the pen. Guess what I will be doing this morning??? Making a different pen because she is so small that she can just walk thru the slots of the panels. Normally the barn doors are closed during birthing season because we are in the dead of winter - never had a summer baby.... However, she gave me nipples on my check and my sturn face melted into a giggling mess.
I still ask for prayers for Sugar - he is giving his best and I wish for us to do the same. Many thanks...
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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amomfly
True Blue Farmgirl
658 Posts
Angie
LaGrange
IN
USA
658 Posts |
Posted - Jun 17 2011 : 07:34:30 AM
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Oh Grace, I am crying reading your post. Not tears of sorrow, but gladness and love. I have several animasl here in avanced ageing. It is a daily blessing to wake up and see they are still here. I know you feel the same.
Some of us are destined to love the needy, abused and elderly animals.
I am praying for you extended family. Life seems to be hard on a lot of people at this time. I pray God shows them that thru him all things are possible.
Good day!
Come visit my blog
http://angieruralliving.blogspot.com/
God Bless
Angie-amomfly
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 18 2011 : 07:51:13 AM
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Well here it is Saturday and my sweet Sugar is still with us. He did have two more mini strokes last night but has already taken his walk with me to eat the grass in the back yard and is not napping with Kasha...
As for the wee one the Naming Contest is going on my blog and I hope you all join in - great prizes are offered and you do not have to be a fiber person - I have many prizes for different types of crafts so jump in if you can.
The wee on was a good girl and kept to the barn but I did have to put her back into the pen 4 times but at least she kept herself safe in the barn.
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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sherrye
True Blue Farmgirl
3775 Posts
sherry
bend in the high desert
oregon
USA
3775 Posts |
Posted - Jun 19 2011 : 06:53:53 AM
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well i thought of you grace as soon as i woke this am. i hope today is gentle to you and sugar. i am hoping you are both ok. while i was cleaning the hog pen yesterday my young doe kidded. she had 2 by herself. she did great. waiting to hear your babies name. happy days and peace to you grace ..........sherrye
the learn as we go silk purse farm
farm girl #1014
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Fiddlehead Farm
True Blue Farmgirl
4562 Posts
Diane
Waupaca
WI
USA
4562 Posts |
Posted - Jun 19 2011 : 07:38:13 AM
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Grace,
Hang in there, prayers to you my friend. I love reading about Sugar and the new kid. It reminds me that life goes on. I think she was sent to you as a reminder. I am sure it is hard to see Sugar close to the end of his life, but what a life he has had.
http://studiodiphotosite.shutterfly.com/
farmgirl sister #922
I ask not for a larger garden, but for finer seeds.
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 19 2011 : 07:49:52 AM
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Hi Ladies
Sherrye congrat's on the new kids what did you get?? What are you naming them?? How exciting what breed are they?? Your in my prayers too and will catch up with you soon I don't get phone service in the barn where I was all last night.
Diane Your so right - she is just pure joy!!!! This morning when I gave the goat bottles to the three she wiggled out of her pen to come and see what I was doing - such a bright happy face - life's problems just melt while looking into that face.
Don't forget the naming contest continues this week and love all that I am getting but would love to have more - I know greedy me!! The thing is I might also just remember those wonderful suggestions next time around.
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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Bear5
True Blue Farmgirl
13055 Posts
Louisiana/Texas
USA
13055 Posts |
Posted - Jun 19 2011 : 9:18:27 PM
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And Grace:
Remember when it seems like we have fallen all the way to the bottom of the barrell, there is only one way out. Up! Start climbing up. I will keep you in my prayers. I believe in you, Grace. Keep us posted.
Marly
"It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth- and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up- that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had." Elisabeth Kurler-Ross |
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 20 2011 : 08:29:51 AM
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Update - Sunday was a long day - I guess I was too tired to handle much so I did what I could but sat with Sugar when I could. He was a bit scrammbled - he was having trouble finding his way around the farm and several times just stood and cried for me to come and walk him back to the barn. Heartbreaking but I was glad I could comfort him simply but touching his horns... Last night the rain finally came which I was thrilled about but we even got a bit of snow. I put a blanket on Sugar because he was shaking even with his full fleece. It rained thru the night which I was thrilled with but the temp dropped to 35 and luckly I did not put away the winter clothes...
The wee one was chilly and a bit whinny but who would blame her - Miss Marple took very good care of her but without her fleece she only had body heat to offer.
Marly thank you for you kind words - I keep reminding myself that the challenges I face can be handled I just have to find a clear mind to get me there... The challenges I face now are something I have never had to deal with before and I understand they are not life threating,at least I hope not, but none the less they have pushed my panic mode over the edge. I again want to thank everyone for the kinds words of support, prayers and friendship - it means the world to me that I am not walking on this planet alone.
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 21 2011 : 09:23:23 AM
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Well I finally got to sleep four hours in my bed !!!! Sugar wanted to go in to the side of the barn with his charges (the one year olds or should I say teen boys) He held his own, butting several when they got to friendly (in the wrong way) and so I decided I would set the alarm and go inside to sleep on top of the bed. Strange I feel more tired then when sleeping in the barn.
As for the Wee One - little devil her - she had two walk abouts this morning and each time was not the one being worried but got her grandmother, aunt and mother in a total panic... Not to mention ME!! She did give great snuggles when I finally caught her but still not worth the stress on everyone.
It is that time of year when life is busy getting heads out of fencelines... Yep, a few goats still have not understood this process. There is one yearling boy who is not the sharpest pencil in the box and does the same section of the fence about 5 times a day... Some folks just do not learn - Oh Wait that includes ME!!
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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grace gerber
True Blue Farmgirl
2804 Posts
grace
larkspur
colorado
USA
2804 Posts |
Posted - Jun 23 2011 : 1:07:31 PM
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How exciting or should I say frightening!!!! This morning I could not find the new baby - she decided to leave the pen and go out with her Grandmother Goat - to go eat before the sun came up. After finding her and giving her a big talking to again I then could not find Sugar. I had visions of him dead in the tall grass. After calling and calling I was in tears I remembered he is very hard of hearing - then Kasha came out of her trailer giving me a funny look - the silly goat decided to not sleep in the barn but rather to go snuggle up in Kasha's trailer... O.K. Now that I have taken a couple more years off my life over the missing animals this morning I think I have earned a stiff drink with dinner.. Oh and I get the pleasure of another roofing company company coming sometime this afternoon - Getting really tired of this - all are coming in way over what the Insurance Company says is what they think it should cost. I hate fighting with folks over what they should be doing right. I have paid for this roof 10 times with my premiums. Hope everyone else is having a better day.
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
http://www.larkspurfunnyfarm.etsy.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.blogspot.com
http://larkspurfunnyfarm.artfire.com
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Blessed in Colorado
True Blue Farmgirl
6675 Posts
Debbie L.
Oregon
USA
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Barnyard Buddies: When I was on my knees |
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When I was on my knees
