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Across the Fence:  Sometimes I'm not a very good farmgirl  |
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Annika
True Blue Farmgirl
5602 Posts
Annika
USA
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 Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 08:38:23 AM
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 Just going through a rough patch this year so far and haven't got out of it yet. Sometimes I feel like everyone here is so industrious and tidy and indefatigable and I'm up to my silly nose in water and dog paddlin' for all I'm worth. Anyone else ever feel this way?
So while I've been working all spring and so far this summer on a farm, my house is a mess, I'm a mess, I just lost my dog Hooligan, who was my best buddy, to a heart tumour and I'm just feeling over my head and not much of a REAL farmgirl. I've had little time to post and no time to spend with my chapter. So I'm sorry if I've just dropped off the planet and not been here for my sisters and friends.
Hugs and blessings to all of you
Annika
Farmgirl sister #13
Mud Hen Queen
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willowtreecreek
True Blue Farmgirl
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Julie
Russell
AR
USA
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 08:57:27 AM
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oh Annika I am thinking of you. I lost my golden about 2 weeks ago and one of my other dogs despite being on preventative is quite sick with heartworms. We are currently in a battle with the company to get themto pay for the treatment. So I understand your feeling of loss. I rarely find time in the summer to be creative an industrious. Seems like most of the day is spent in farm chores and basic upkeep of the house and yard. You are not alone. Maybe you could try scheduling in 15 minutes a day to do something creative. Once you meet that goal for a week bump the time up to 25 or 30 minutes. If you want to do it make it a priority and then it will start to come more naturally. Good luck!
Farmgirl Sister #17
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Prairie Princess
True Blue Farmgirl
1075 Posts
Jodi
Washington
USA
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 09:04:31 AM
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Annika, I'm praying for you, farmgirl!! Hang in there, the rough patch will pass...it's bound to. Sorry life's been giving you a dose of it lately. We're here for ya! (((hugs)))
~Jodi
"Women are like teabags...you never know how strong they are until they get into hot water." Eleanor Roosevelt |
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Farmtopia
True Blue Farmgirl
1465 Posts
Zan
New York
New York
USA
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mima
True Blue Farmgirl
1573 Posts
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 10:07:09 AM
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Just being your beautiful kind self is what a farmgirl is!!!!!! You hang in there farmgirlfriend! Love and hugs!!!!
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Annika
True Blue Farmgirl
5602 Posts
Annika
USA
5602 Posts |
Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 10:08:25 AM
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Thanks Julie and Jodi, Just feeling a bit daunted today
Julie I am hoping and praying that your dog pulls through. I really miss my dog. It's hard to lose something that you have loved so well and that has loved you back with no reservations.
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MarySueK
True Blue Farmgirl
96 Posts
Susan
Richland
WA
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 10:24:43 AM
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Hi Annika!
Sorry you're having a tough time. When I feel like all the wind is gone out of my sails, sad, tired, etc., I find that if I do some little bit of a project with bright colors - sewing, embroidery, knitting - it makes me feel a bit better. Not a lot, but just a bit of energy. And so sad about your buddy Hooligan! Dogs are the most understanding sorts of friends.
Sue in Richland WA |
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Sandra K. Licher
True Blue Farmgirl
1106 Posts
Sandra
Horseshoe Bend
Arkansas
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 10:40:27 AM
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Oh Annika...I know you must be feeling awful and SO overwhelmed with it all! My heart goes out to you sweetie and know that you just have to take baby steps and not huge giant steps. Allow yourself some slack to grieve for your best friend and don't be so hard on yourself. I know we all expect SO much of ourselves every day...I do it to myself all the time...it's crazy....when these situations arise be even kinder to yourself and don't apologize for being human. We all love you here and you are NOT alone...we've all been there...maybe not today but at some time in our lives....breathe, cry, grieve and maybe all 3 while in a nice hot bath! My Mother used to say a hot bath was like 8 hours sleep...not so sure how accurate that is but it does sort of melt your cares away and it's like a warm hug when there's no one to give you one.
And like Julie said....baby steps...don't look at the big picture...just pick the top 3 things you'd like to get done today....just one a time....if they don't all get done...there's always tomorrow but first ensure you get your rest, you have good food to nourish you and you have some little reward at the end of the day to look forward to...a good book, a glass of wine, a movie to watch....something to tell yourself....you worked hard and you deserve a reward for it.
Anyway....I live alone and do that stuff all the time to motivate and keep myself going and to inspire me and keep me from getting too lonely I have all you gals!
We're here for you!
Love ya
Sam in AR..... "It's a great life if you don't weaken!"
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catscharm74
True Blue Farmgirl
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Heather
Texas
USA
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 10:43:56 AM
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Oh Annnika- I know how it feels. Right now I feel like I am paddling backwards and I don't think I can do anything about it. I am just doing the basics to survive and I am ok with that. Take a breath, a bath and some good cry time and know you will be ok. Things will come together when the time is right and know until then, you are fully capable farmgirl just taking it easy.
Heather
Yee-Haw, I am a cowgirl!!!
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Sandra K. Licher
True Blue Farmgirl
1106 Posts
Sandra
Horseshoe Bend
Arkansas
1106 Posts |
Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 10:44:19 AM
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Julie...I am so sorry to hear about your dogs and what you are going through! Prayers and healthful thoughts are coming your way for you and your pet. Please keep us informed.
Sam in AR..... "It's a great life if you don't weaken!"
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elphie0503
True Blue Farmgirl
500 Posts
Samantha
Gilmer
Texas
USA
500 Posts |
Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 11:08:19 AM
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It has nothing to do with you being "good" or not!! Everybody has those black eye kind of days...just hang on!! I felt that way for the most of May! I told my mom that God forgot to tell me where my little black hole was, because I sure could have used one to crawl in to. I am sorry about your dog...we lost ours several years ago and haven't had one since. I don't care what some may say...it is a family member that is lost, and it hurts.
Truly, I hope that it gets better for you soon! ((BIG Hugs))
Samantha
www.elphie0503.blogspot.com
A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort~~Albright
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Huckelberrywine
True Blue Farmgirl
1607 Posts
Michelle
Rosalia
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 11:10:36 AM
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Annika, this IS what it is like for most of us. It's the farmgirl spirit that keeps you going even when everything isn't perfect. It's finding beauty in a shoulder to cry on and knowing you have so much more in common with lots of folks than it feels like sometimes when you're in the middle of a tough stretch. Lots of support your way! I'm a far-from-perfect-farmgirl. :) We're only human, right? Gotta love yourself and your life as you are, because you're doing the best you can each day, and THAT is admirable and worthwhile. Comparisons always leave us feeling short, so don't compare. Give you a hug.
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Jami
True Blue Farmgirl
1238 Posts
Jami
Ellensburg
WA
USA
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 1:31:56 PM
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Annika: Of course I've felt the same feelings...just a couple of months ago too. My mom had 2 major surgeries and was sick for over a year (really bad) and the emotional and physical drain of being there for her and the "strong one" in the family wore me down to a frazzle on top of work and lambing and the farm, etc. Didn't realize it until it was all over (my mom is doing well!) and I crashed hard just like you are. It happens. I got back up on the horse when I got darned good and ready and feel great now.
Thinking of you. If I had any advice to give it would be this:
Don't beat yourself up over needing some down time...and when you're darned good and ready (that's the farmgirl talking!)brush yourself off and get back up on the horse after all the buck is out of him.
Take care.
Jami in WA
Okay, so now I have a blog. http://woolyinwashington.wordpress.com/ |
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Txfarmgal
True Blue Farmgirl
585 Posts
AK
USA
585 Posts |
Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 2:55:41 PM
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Originally posted by Annika
Just going through a rough patch this year so far and haven't got out of it yet. Sometimes I feel like everyone here is so industrious and tidy and indefatigable and I'm up to my silly nose in water and dog paddlin' for all I'm worth. Anyone else ever feel this way?
So while I've been working all spring and so far this summer on a farm, my house is a mess, I'm a mess, I just lost my dog Hooligan, who was my best buddy, to a heart tumour and I'm just feeling over my head and not much of a REAL farmgirl. I've had little time to post and no time to spend with my chapter. So I'm sorry if I've just dropped off the planet and not been here for my sisters and friends.
Hugs and blessings to all of you
Annika
Farmgirl sister #13
Mud Hen Queen
http://innermountainmudhens.wordpress.com/
http://panzymoon.wordpress.com/
http://panzymoonsgarden.blogspot.com/
AngiK
For he is faithful that promised. Hebrews 10:23
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Txfarmgal
True Blue Farmgirl
585 Posts
AK
USA
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 2:58:56 PM
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[quote]Originally posted by Annika
Just going through a rough patch this year so far and haven't got out of it yet. Sometimes I feel like everyone here is so
oh Annika ((((((((((hugs))))))))) All of us go through seasons. I know it's hard but you are growing and learning even in your rough patch. That does not mean you are not a good farm girl! Saying a prayer for you, I know it's hard to lose a friend. hugs
AngiK
For he is faithful that promised. Hebrews 10:23
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Woodswoman
True Blue Farmgirl
512 Posts
Jennifer
Altamont
NY
USA
512 Posts |
Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 7:17:08 PM
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I'm so sorry to hear about Hooligan-I know how hard it is to lose a buddy like that.
In the meantime, take good care of yourself. And don't worry about being a perfect farmgirl! Sometimes my house looks good, sometimes my garden looks good, sometimes I look good, but very rarely all at the same time!!
Jennifer
Farmgirl Sister #104
"Nature brings to every time and season some beauties of its own".
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Aunt Jenny
True Blue Farmgirl
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Jenny
middle of
Utah
USA
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 7:29:42 PM
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Oh Annika...I am sorry to hear about your buddy Hooligan. It is so hard to lose our beloved friends like that.
As for rough patches and all..we sure all have our times don't we? You ARE a real farmgirl cuz you ARE not by what you can do. We all have times we can't do as much as we would like. I have sure had my times of barely getting by. Hang in there..we love you!!
Jenny in Utah
Proud Farmgirl sister #24
Inside me there is a skinny woman crying to get out...but I can usually shut her up with cookies
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Farm Girl 2
True Blue Farmgirl
108 Posts
Becky
Willis
VA
USA
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Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 7:32:39 PM
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Annika, Jennifer just said it all ........ as above!!!!
Keep your chin up cause we are here for you!!
BIG HUGS SENT YOUR WAY!!
Becky
Loving Living Simply!
http://sunnymorningfarm.blogspot.com |
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downbranchroad
True Blue Farmgirl
374 Posts
Joy
Southern
KY
USA
374 Posts |
Posted - Jun 26 2008 : 7:52:35 PM
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Annika,
You are normal. It is normal to feel these feelings, we all do at times. Like they said, just hang in there. This too shall pass. You are among friends.
Appalachian Girl
Jem
*If you always do what you have always done, you will always get what you have always got.
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Annika
True Blue Farmgirl
5602 Posts
Annika
USA
5602 Posts |
Posted - Jun 27 2008 : 08:17:26 AM
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I'm feeling a bit more chipper today. Thank you all for the encouragement. I've got Hooligan's ashes coming in a nice wooden box with his photo set into it, so I feel sad and miss him, but there is a finished quality to it now. Was out looking at my plum trees today and looks like I'll have lots in spite of the cold spring that we had. Looking forward to canning and jelly-ing some of them.
We all get down and in over our head sometimes. Thanks for reminding me what farm sisters are =)
Hugs to all
Annika
Farmgirl sister #13
Mud Hen Queen
http://innermountainmudhens.wordpress.com/
http://panzymoon.wordpress.com/
http://panzymoonsgarden.blogspot.com/ |
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Canadian farmgirl
True Blue Farmgirl
482 Posts
Lori
Ontario
Canada
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Posted - Jun 27 2008 : 1:17:45 PM
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Hi Annika,
So sorry you've been having a rough patch. Sometimes I think we might set the bar a little too high. I know I've done that sometimes.
I find working on a small project, or getting a batch of canning done, gives me a sense of accomplishment when it feels like I'm drifting away.
Try to make time for a little holiday this summer, even if it's just a day trip.
Remember, there is no such thing as a bad farmgirl. You want to see a mess? Come look at my dining room!
Hugs,
Lori
Farmgirl Sister #183 |
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queenofdreamsz4u
True Blue Farmgirl
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Stephanie Suzanne
Smoky Mountains Tennessee
USA
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Annika
True Blue Farmgirl
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Annika
USA
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Across the Fence: Sometimes I'm not a very good farmgirl |
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Sometimes I'm not a very good farmgirl
But why apologize? Life is sometimes so messy that all you can do is hold on tight and try not to get knocked over, but it's CLEARLY not your fault. Who said being a farmgirl is perfect all the time? Umm, that's what the muckboots are for, no? 
Email me anytime, you hear?!!
Hugs to both of my fellow mud hens . Thank you for being there. All of my farm sisters are the best.