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Across the Fence: Prayers for Monday 9/10 |
suzyhomemaker
True Blue Farmgirl
806 Posts
Clare
Tyler Hill
PA
USA
806 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 4:39:47 PM
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Ladies, I need your prayers. Well, thank you all so far and I need more. Lots.
I had an MRI of lumbar and pelvis yesterday and the report today says there is a tumor 3"x2" in my lower right abdominal wall. This is obviously a recurrence as I had cervical cancer, stage 1B almost 2 years ago. WEll, no one knows for sure and I am praying it is noncancerous growth, but the very real possibility of a recurrence exists.
To say I am feeling sad is an understatement. I need prayers for encouragement and support from all my friends here. I am scared about the unknown treatment.
I have two lovely children (7 and 15) who need me, and I need help staying upbeat and focused.
So, tonight I am going to release cathartic tears and then move on to being brave. Monday I will be showing up o nthe doorstep of the gyn oncologist who assured me back in June "There's absolutely no indication of cancer." So much for listening to me when I told him I had pain.
The MRI was ordered by a Infectious Disease Specialist my family doctor refered me to. The results were just give one day later to him and my family doctor. My family doctor broke the news to me.
Tomorrow, Monday 8/27, DH is going to take me down to the gyn onc office. I know my doctor sees patients on Mondays and Wednesdays. I have waited anywhere from 3-5 hours to see him for follow-up check-ups as new patients with "problems" just identified go in first. I believe this situation constitutes a new problem. The office is 2 hours away so I don't want to wait for a wed appointment from a morning call.
I'll keep you posted. I am sure they will go over the report in better detail and order some tests, probably bloodwork and let me know what a possible plan will be.
Please keep me in prayers, especially to remain peaceful and calm.
8/28/07 I saw the gyn oncologist. Today I will be set up with a time and date for the biopsy. The spot in "out of the parameters of normal". So, the story is that my surgery from almost two years ago went well, my lymph nodes were clean, and there was no expectation for this. The ulltrasounds cover the pelvic area, and this spot is on my back wall, above the top of the right hip bone. It was not expected or anticipated. Biopsy next and then follow-up appointment with results and a plan of action.
I am still praying for grace and healing. I have my request in to God for a BENIGN tumor. I am leaving it in his hands as he created an opening with the doctor for me yesterday. However, it never hurts to keep up the petitions!
Friday, August 31 is CT scan and bloodwork. Thursday, September 6 is consult and biopsy. September 10 I see oncologist for report/results.
All the tests are done. Monday is the big meeting with the oncologist. The good news is my bloodwork seems good. two things are off which are red flags to me as last time around they were not. However, the Ct scan revealed all my organs are clear. That was a true blessing.
the bad news is the CT scan revealed the source as a very large spot in the muscle of teh right buttock, right up next to teh bone, right around blood vessels and nerves. The spots o nthe abdominal wall are seconday. They used the words "lesion" and "metastases" which I did not like. Well, the biopsy will tell it all.
I have been promised by the doctor's nurse that the reports will be sent out to as many other clinics/specialists I want to gather info on how to proceed.
It was a really hard day yesterday. Country girl in NE PA |
Edited by - suzyhomemaker on Sep 07 2007 04:55:43 AM |
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mkmomus
True Blue Farmgirl
248 Posts
Merle
Greensboro
NC
248 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 4:56:28 PM
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Clare, I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I am so sorry to hear this news but it could turn out to be nothing and that is what I will pray for. Just yesterday my daughter and I were talking. She is in a Psychology class this semester. She was saying that her teacher was telling them about a study on cancer patients. He said that when a patient was in remission. if they had people praying for them, they were over 50% more likely to be curred for good! With all the prayers and good intentions of the people here, your family and friends I am sure your chances for a good outcome has just skyrocketed. Merle |
Edited by - mkmomus on Aug 24 2007 5:10:08 PM |
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Beemoosie
True Blue Farmgirl
2077 Posts
Bonnie
New York
USA
2077 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 4:57:16 PM
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Clare, You know we all love you and you are in our prayers. I could go on and on for you now, but I won't. Just know I am thinking of you and praying for you. ((((HUGS)))) Bonnie
My soul magnifies the Lord, And my spirit rejoices in God my Savior. Luke 1:46,47 www.beequilting.blogspot.com http://beemoosie-picture-diary.blogspot.com/ |
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mikesgirl
True Blue Farmgirl
3659 Posts
Sherri
Elma
WA
USA
3659 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 5:02:02 PM
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Prayers and positive thoughts. Sherri |
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Nancy Gartenman
True Blue Farmgirl
9093 Posts
Nancy
West Seneca
New York
USA
9093 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 5:03:09 PM
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Clare, Will be keeping you in my thoughts. What a scary thing for you and your family.To bad that you can't always believe what the Doctors say. Try the best you can to stay positive, easy for me to say right? But try, and keep us updated. NANCY JO
www.Nancy-Jo.blogspot.com |
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Marybeth
True Blue Farmgirl
6418 Posts
Mary Beth
Stanwood
Wa 98292
USA
6418 Posts |
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Phils Ann
True Blue Farmgirl
1095 Posts
Ann
Parsonsburg
Maryland
USA
1095 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 5:40:42 PM
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Clare, I'm praying for you. I pray the growth isn't cancer, and that it will be removed completely. I pray you'll know the peace beyond understanding during this time, and have the comfort that nothing can reach you unless it comes through the nail scarred hands that love you. It does help to get that cry over and let it out! Then, trust...and cling. Try not to think about the worst case scenarios. Hugs,
Ann Sairy Hill Thicket There is a Redeemer. |
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Alee
True Blue Farmgirl
22941 Posts
Alee
Worland
Wy
USA
22941 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 5:51:51 PM
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Clare- I will pray for you, too. I hope it turns out to be something that is not cancerous and easily treatable. Hopefully this will be the end to your pain and you can start healing!
Alee The amazing one handed typist! One hand for typing, one hand to hold Nora! http://home.test-afl.tulix.com/aleeandnora/ |
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khartquilt
True Blue Farmgirl
1176 Posts
USA
1176 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 5:55:34 PM
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Clare, I am sorry to here your news. Believe me I understand completely how you must feel. Have your day of all out crying! Curse the world. The doctors. Then bend your knees and pray. Open your heart to hope. You must look on the positive side. You must be strong. Modern medicine is wonderful. If in fact something is not right chances are it can be fixed. Everything will be ok. Pray. I will have you in my prayers.
Kathy H http://khartquilt.blogspot.com |
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Brew Crew
True Blue Farmgirl
676 Posts
Molly
Arizona
676 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 6:00:23 PM
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Wow, what a strong woman you are. I am thinking of you and your family. Give your kids an extra squeeze-- Just reading your post made me run to hug mine.
"There is a Happy Dale far, far away. . ." -Arsenic and Old Lace |
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Firemama
True Blue Farmgirl
1731 Posts
Amanda
Medical Lake
WA
USA
1731 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 6:03:18 PM
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Clare, I cant even begin to imagine what is going through your mind right now,I am prayinghard for you and your family.
Mommy to 2 Your FreckleFaced Farm Girl!! Help when you can, Pray when you can't. |
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Kathie
True Blue Farmgirl
2436 Posts
Kathie
Thonotosassa
Florida
USA
2436 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 6:12:53 PM
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Clare.. I love you so very Much Sweet Heart.. You know we're all right here with you.. So you'll just prey.. & we'll keep sending you all of our strength & love & prayers of health & healing..
You take care of yourself.. & just enjoy your family this weekend.. & go into the Dr's. Monday with an open mind & clear head.. Listen to what he says.. & focus on what you need to do to heal.. You'll be fine.. I know your scared.. but try not to be.. You need to go into this as if you are determined to win a Marathon.. So Nothing will hold you back.. or slow you down..
Thinking of you all honey.. Love you.. Kathie
In a World Where you Can Be Anything, Be Yourself.. |
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Aunt George
True Blue Farmgirl
1476 Posts
Georgann
Midlothian
VA
1476 Posts |
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vintagegrl
True Blue Farmgirl
280 Posts
Jeanette
NH
USA
280 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 6:20:37 PM
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Clare, My prayers and healing thoughts go out to you. |
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Aunt George
True Blue Farmgirl
1476 Posts
Georgann
Midlothian
VA
1476 Posts |
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gateway girl
True Blue Farmgirl
135 Posts
Shari
Missouri
USA
135 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 6:46:30 PM
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Special prayers will be going out for you tonight Clare. Take a deep breath and know that we all love you and we are all here for you to lean on anytime.
Shari
Life is a chain of moments of enjoyment, it's not just about survival. Live every second to it's fullest!
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Tina Michelle
True Blue Farmgirl
6948 Posts
Tina
sunshine state
FL
USA
6948 Posts |
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katie-ell
True Blue Farmgirl
1818 Posts
Katie
Illinois
1818 Posts |
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sewgirlie
True Blue Farmgirl
1894 Posts
Sheryl-lyn
Calverton
NY
USA
1894 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 7:08:44 PM
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Clare:
My prayers and hopes and wishes are with you all. You will have all the friendship you need with us here for you every day. I love you and pray that you will be well!
Love, Sheryl |
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levisgrammy
True Blue Farmgirl
9352 Posts
Denise
Beavercreek
Ohio
USA
9352 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 7:12:58 PM
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Clare, I am praying for you. Praying God's peace for you no matter the outcome but keep positive thoughts. Hugs, Denise
"The earth is the Lord's and the fullness thereof and all that dwell therein."
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wallflower
True Blue Farmgirl
101 Posts
Holly
East Walpole
MA
USA
101 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 7:26:48 PM
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"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, 'He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.' Surely He will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart." --Psalm 91:1-4
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Michelle Marie
True Blue Farmgirl
158 Posts
Michelle
Many
Louisiana
USA
158 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 7:27:04 PM
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I am praying for you. My mom is a breast cancer survivor, and I know how this waiting is. She was put on a bunch of hormones for years and we were SO mad at the doctors. My girls are close to your children's ages and I know how it must feel to have worry for not only yourself but them. I pray you have comfort and I pray that you have a positive result. I know you will also draw such strength and happiness from your two sweet kids! Have a good cry and get it out then go do something fun with your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers! Michelle Marie |
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Tammy Claxton
True Blue Farmgirl
1559 Posts
Tammy
Glen Burnie
Maryland
USA
1559 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 7:47:37 PM
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I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong. You have many wonderful farmgirls keeping you in their hearts and prayers. {{{HUGS}}}
What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger! |
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nashbabe
True Blue Farmgirl
687 Posts
687 Posts |
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katmom
True Blue Farmgirl
17161 Posts
Grace
WACAL Gal
WashCalif.
USA
17161 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 10:37:31 PM
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Clare, consider yourself wrapped in love, hugz & prayers from all of us., and ,,,it is ok to cry, so go ahead, and we will embrace you & comfort you as you do. <><
>^..^< Happiness is being a katmom. www.katmom4.blogspot.com |
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Aunt Jenny
True Blue Farmgirl
11381 Posts
Jenny
middle of
Utah
USA
11381 Posts |
Posted - Aug 24 2007 : 11:01:26 PM
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You are sure in my prayers too Clare. Hang in there! And if anyone deserves a good cry - you do. It helps sometimes! I wish I were there to help or something!! Take care!!!
Jenny in Utah Inside me there is a skinny woman crying to get out...but I can usually shut her up with cookies http://www.auntjennysworld.blogspot.com/ visit my little online shop at www.auntjenny.etsy.com |
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