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| dutchy |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 02:22:20 AM
That is how i feel, absolutely useless and forgettable. No reason to go on. won't do anything to myself but just need some prayers. hope this feeling passes real soon. feel just dispensable really. no family, no kids, no reason to do anything. For whom do I do thing but for me and i am so noit worth it.please say a little prayer fdor this mood to pas soon
Hugs from Marian/Dutchy, a farmgirl from the Netherlands :)
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| dutchy |
Posted - Sep 01 2009 : 01:51:05 AM
Beverly you are MORE than welcome to visit any time you like. 
We'll talk oke, lol
Ya never know where you might be spending Christmas.....maybe in a cold the Netherlands, who knows lol
Hugs from Marian/Dutchy, a farmgirl from the Netherlands :)
My personal blog:
http://just-me-a-dutch-girl.blogspot.com/
Almost daily updates on me and mine :)
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| Beverly Gill |
Posted - Sep 01 2009 : 01:44:49 AM
 Well if YOU think so, I'll accept that.
Beverly Beverly |
| dutchy |
Posted - Sep 01 2009 : 01:29:58 AM
Oh Bev, that would be great lol. But India is as far away from here as Thailand is, lol
Been looking just for fun:)
3,954 miles is the distance between New Delhi and Amsterdam !!! And then about 100 miles to my home duh!!
I know you mean well girl, but a bit too far for a weekend right??
But oh we would have F U N !!.
Hugs from Marian/Dutchy, a farmgirl from the Netherlands :)
My personal blog:
http://just-me-a-dutch-girl.blogspot.com/
Almost daily updates on me and mine :)
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| Beverly Gill |
Posted - Sep 01 2009 : 01:24:08 AM
Oh Dutchy, I'm sorry you are feeling so down.....if you need me to visit you I will. I know you feel so alone without your brother....but I'm sure you have a nice network of friends to support you through your post office, your church, your neighbors. You have such a sparkle to your personality----you are so very loved here with us farm gals.
How far is the Netherlands from India smart gal? Let me know and maybe I can come in December to think pink with you? If that is something that you could look forward to.....maybe I can arrange a simple getawawy for a few days.......but this is only if you want. Let me know. Also, don't forget you have that upcoming wedding to help plan.
I used to be a ceremony coordinator for one of our historical sited in Massachusetts.....I worked there for 6 years and probably helped with about 500 weddings. Remember think pink gal simple is elegant.
Take it easy and always know you are not alone....EVER.
Your sister in pink,
Beverly |
| Tapestry |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 8:21:46 PM
big hugs to you dutchy and as you can tell you are a very loved woman who would be missed horribly if you weren't here. I don't know if you've ever seen the movie "It's a wonderful life" with Jimmy Stewart and Donna Reed but it's about a man who thinks there is no reason for him to have ever been born. Throughout the movie he learns how very important he is to people who know and love him. You, dear dutchy, are important to all of US. Yes, menopause may the culprit for making you so miserable as could be your thyroid so definitely get checked out because your Mary Jane's family wants you to feel well and happy.
Diane, I'm so very sorry to hear about your dad. I'll be adding you to my prayers for comfort and peace for your dad and strength for you and your mom as you deal with what is to come.
Happy farmgirl sister #353
Look for rainbows instead of mud puddles
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| Sitnalta |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 7:31:54 PM
Oh Dutchy! Big hugs to you girl! I'm not at that season of life yet, my dear friend, but I do not what those moods and hormones are like. I hope you will indeed talk to your doctor. It is never fun nor is it a good thing to let those kinds of emotions run you over. I know personally, they can take over and run you flat down.
HUGS and Prayers!!!!
Jessie
People are like stained-glass windows.
They sparkle and shine when the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in,
their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.
www.messiejessie2.blogspot.com |
| ceejay48 |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 5:45:59 PM
Dutchy Dear!!
Be encouraged!! YOU ARE LOVED!!!! And, yes, you have all of us and we enjoy your posts and your sense of humor. Sure would be fun to meet you!!
I'll be praying for the Lord to lift your spirits and encourage you!!! I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE YOU ARE!!! Been there, done that . . . many times over and probably will happen again!!!
LOVE!
CJ
...from the barefoot farmgirl in SW Colorado |
| frannie |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 5:34:29 PM
dear marian, i hope that every day you will start to feel better. i read this post and just wished i could send for you to come have a vacation here at the farm. i know what it feels like to feel bad, and you may not realize it but several times you posted to me and gave me a great boost to my spirits throught this craZy cancer journey i have been on.
you are my favorite dutch farmgirl friend and i hope you will feel "in the pink" real soon.
love and hugs from texas
love
frannie in texas
home of "green"crafts,
where no scrap is left behind
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| prariehawk |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 5:21:50 PM
wow, Marian, you sound like me at times. I wonder if that's what's been going on with me lately? FAtigue, memory, sleep problems--I AM in my late forties, so maybe I'm experiencing mental menopause. Like you, I feel like there's a happy person inside me who rarely sees the light of day. I hate going to the doctor, but after reading this, I'm going to make an appt. I'll say a prayer for you--thanks for shedding some light on what may be causing my mood swings/personality changes. And I DO enjoy reading about all things PINK! You are a special person with a lot to give <<<hugs>>>
Cindy
"Dog is my co-pilot"
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| Diane B Carter |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 5:03:59 PM
I usually check Across the fence and if I have time I go to active topics. I came here to ask for prayers for my mom and I. My dad has bladder cancer and may not live for another week. Thank-God he is at home and not in much pain. He totally knows what is going on that upsets me a little bit, I am so thankful I can share my feelings and thoughts with him. But its so hard not to cry in front of him & mom. I know its a part of life we all have to face and I have been blessed with good parents who were both in great health until 6 months ago. So please pray for my mom to have strength, for my dad to have peace and for me to be able to continue to help my mom with this.
Dutchy, I was just reading the above please take care of yourself. I agree have your thyroid checked and menopause is not easy, I'm hoping mine is over with I'm 58. But every now and then the Blasss takes over, I usually go for a ride and look for beauty in everything I see. It has helped me a lot.
When my kids and I had to go any distance in a car we would play the what beautiful thing do you see? They always found something and they are now 29 & 30 and my oldest asked me a few days ago if I remember playing it I said yes I still do he said he does to it helps him get through the day. Take care of yourself, you are loved.
Hope all your days are Sunnydays.
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| kissmekate |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 4:36:53 PM
Hugs to you honey. I know I have days that I feel the same way. Like the other girls said earlier, give it to God and let Him work it out for you.
I do that when I feel down and out.
I am glad you are going to see your doc too. maybe your meds need to be tweaked a little.
Don't miss out on a blessing, just because it isn't packaged the way you expected. ~MaryJo Copeland |
| dutchy |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 1:10:29 PM
Thanks Robyn. That is almost the same as I was reading in Dutch. They too were talking about fatigue, sleepdisorder, memory etc. YIKES.
Hugs from Marian/Dutchy, a farmgirl from the Netherlands :)
My personal blog:
http://just-me-a-dutch-girl.blogspot.com/
Almost daily updates on me and mine :)
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| Roxy7 |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 12:42:53 PM
Definitely check the thyroid then. I found this website when I thought I was losing my mind last fall. So depressed, feeling ill. You name it. I would have hot flashes, although I was having a regular cycle. It all made so much sense and reassured me things were okay. I wasnt going crazy.
Check it out.
http://www.34-menopause-symptoms.com/#fatigue
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| dutchy |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 11:16:10 AM
Luanne, I AM on thyroid meds for about 11 yrs now. And yes they NEED to be checked again. Thanks :)y thyroid is working OVERTIME big time.
Hugs from Marian/Dutchy, a farmgirl from the Netherlands :)
My personal blog:
http://just-me-a-dutch-girl.blogspot.com/
Almost daily updates on me and mine :)
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| beekeepersgirl |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 11:14:09 AM
Hi Dutchy !
While you're at your doctor, also ask him to check your thyroid. Being cold and tired/listless all the time turned out to be a low thyroid level for me - I now take a little pill every AM and feel like my old self. Just a suggestion - thyroid problems are so often overlooked.
Take care of yourself - I hope you feel better real soon!
Luanne
Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul, and health to the bones.
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| dutchy |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 11:11:38 AM
Linda, yes. I am tired most of the time! I do sleep rather well at night (the occasional sleepless nights oke) but for the most part I sleep well. BUT can sleep during the day as well! When I get home from the mail route I NEED to crash on the sofa and have a nap (sometimes an hour and a half nap duh) As I said, I don't recall a hot flash, ever! Nor do I recall night sweats. I am always SO cold. That could be a symptom too, maybe?? But then I was always cold from since I was a child ;)
Talking about early menopause, lol
Hugs from Marian/Dutchy, a farmgirl from the Netherlands :)
My personal blog:
http://just-me-a-dutch-girl.blogspot.com/
Almost daily updates on me and mine :)
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| yarnmamma |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 11:04:20 AM
I just remembered another thing I learned from my doctor. I had a few days when I couldn't stay awake very well...was very sleepy all day. It was not being sad or drowsy like med side effect..but felt like a normal staying awake all night wanted to sleep feeling.
I went to doctor and she said that we have hot flashes during the night and it will bring us out of REM sleep...deep sleep that gets us rested. And not remember them! So we didn't realize that we were missing normal sleep! She said that the and tiredness is the number ONE reason women go to her in menaupause. We increased my estrogen and though I have a hot flash once in a while..I give myself permission to take a nap and sleep when I feel like it.
Being that tired is not lazy but a medical thing. Isn't that interesting?
Linda in Scranton, PA |
| dutchy |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 10:55:58 AM
Me too Alee, me too. Mind you I am not sure ofcourse. But looking at the symptoms I found online, it sure makes a lot of sense to me.
Hugs from Marian/Dutchy, a farmgirl from the Netherlands :)
My personal blog:
http://just-me-a-dutch-girl.blogspot.com/
Almost daily updates on me and mine :)
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| Alee |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 10:42:55 AM
Glad to hear that it looks like you might have found the root of the problem, Dutchy!! Hopefully you can see your doctor soon!
Alee
Farmgirl Sister #8
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| Calicogirl |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 10:37:49 AM
I didn't even take that into consideration Marian. A few years ago I was feeling like that too! I felt dead inside, didn't care, wanted to be left alone. I tried a natural Hormone cream and oh my did it help with everything! I'm 45 and have been dealing with perimenopause but have had alot of the same symptoms. I just wish I could get rid of the monthly thing if I have to deal with the other stuff too!
I'm glad that you are making an appointment, that will help alot :)
~Sharon
By His Grace, For His Glory
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| dutchy |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 10:35:44 AM
Di yes!!!!!! That is me, a withdrawn mental nutcase;) Scared sometimes out of my wits and not knowing why!! And yes I hate myself too for what I am now. Because deep down inside this is so NOT me. Deep down is a nice lady, with compassion and a funny streak that has a lot to give. But at the moment she just stays hidden.
Hugs from Marian/Dutchy, a farmgirl from the Netherlands :)
My personal blog:
http://just-me-a-dutch-girl.blogspot.com/
Almost daily updates on me and mine :)
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| DaisyFarm |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 10:31:00 AM
NOT silly at all!!! That is most definitely me too Marian...I call it mentalpause! I can handle all the physical symptoms and do get some terrific "power surges" , but I cannot handle the horrid mental side of it all. So I take the dreaded HRT in a compounded form. For me personally, it is more than worth the associated risk. I hated who I was becoming (an anxiety ridden, withdrawn, twisted-thinking witch!!) and am so happy to be me again.
Di |
| dutchy |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 09:37:15 AM
Linda, I don't mind whatever y'all call me :)Marian, Dutchy,Pink Princess all is fine by me.
Gals I have emailed this to Linda just yet. I am reading a Dutch site about Menopause. I KNOW I am in the middle of it, I am 52. BUT stupid me just thought it was mostly about the monthly thing and things like that, you know . I have no symptoms, no night sweats to speak of etc. BUT I just now read that there is also a mental menopause going on!! You know, in my brains!! And that is exactly how I feel. WOW this is a real eyeopenenr for me. I know, this may sound so silly to y'all and maybe it is. But things that are written in that article, the anger, the withdrawing, the wanting to run away from it all, the not caring anymore and way more. THAT IS ME.
I will try and visit my doctor this week and talk to her about it.
Hugs from Marian/Dutchy, a farmgirl from the Netherlands :)
My personal blog:
http://just-me-a-dutch-girl.blogspot.com/
Almost daily updates on me and mine :)
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| yarnmamma |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 09:13:03 AM
Hi Dutchy! Marian...I don't know which you prefer...I just like the cute name Dutchy...:-)
Where are you? I hope ya read these responses soon! Let us know how today is going for you!!
I'm thinking and praying about you all day today.
(((((huuuuggggggssss for YOU))))))
Linda in Scranton, PA
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| Alee |
Posted - Aug 31 2009 : 07:23:09 AM
Dutchy- I have to agree with the ladies! You are part of the Farmgirl family! I love reading your posts and I think you are a very special lady with lots to offer to the world! You have lots of creativeness, a wonderful unique personality, and a great sense of humor! *hugs*
Alee
Farmgirl Sister #8
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www.farmgirlalee.blogspot.com
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