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| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - Apr 24 2008 : 6:21:09 PM
I am watching the quality of his life slip away - he is slowed down and the nodes are huge. The prednisone did not do anything for him so I am guessing this was pretty far advanced before it surfaced in the nodes. It is the most humane think I can do for him, even though it is tearing me up inside. I had one other Corgi, Emma Jean that I loved like Bagel - I lost her a day before her 7th birthday to a third degree heart block -it was one of the worst days of my life.
Little Bagel got along with my shepherd, June who died last year of cancer also - she will be happy to see her little friend. I will miss him so much. Please pray for him 
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - May 05 2008 : 11:24:06 PM
Bagel come home in a nice cedar box with a small lock and two keys - it has a brass name plate with his name on it. My shepherd is also in a cedar box with no name plate from a different crematorium - ask about it at your vet, it is a nice way to keep them with you. I have quite a few here in the house, and my dad also but he is not in cedar he is in slate, and on my bureau, very comforting when I go to sleep at night. Hugs! I love my pets more than anything else in my very life that is for sure.
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| wooliespinner |
Posted - May 05 2008 : 6:09:59 PM
Thanks so much Kathy,
I had never thought about cremation. I don't know if my vet offers that service. When I was there this past friday putting Daisy to sleep they wanted to know if I wanted her back or not. Of course I brought my baby home but they never mentioned cremation or any other service. I will have to look into that.
Did they also offer the little casket he was placed into ? Its sounds very nice the way you were able to bring him home. I hope your heart gets better over the next few weeks and the pain lessens.
Big hugs to you. Its good to know there are special people like you in the world. Good luck with Emily........almost sounds like a really bad allergy. Have heard of that problem a few times over the years. I wonder if a low dose of benadryle might help her ??? Just a tiny bit everyday. Just a thought.
take care of yourself
Linda
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| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - May 05 2008 : 2:57:00 PM
Oh my God Linda I am so sorry for you. My yard too is like a pet cemetery and that is why I cremate a lot now, and when I die I want to be with them when I die, all be buried together. What type of monster caught her in a trap, that is horrible but she had a good long and happy life with you. So sad to say goodbye. Hugs and love are coming your way....
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| wooliespinner |
Posted - May 05 2008 : 10:22:38 AM
Kathy,
I cry when I read your last post. I have rescued many dogs and cats. Daisy my 16 year old cat was rescued from a leghold trap. She had to have 1/2 her front leg removed. She has done super well for the past 13 years. The past 3 years she has been fighting kidney failure. She made a turn for the worst and we made the decision to put her down. She was suffering to much and we new it was time. We placed her in the ground next to the other 11 pets along a trail on our farm. We call it the trial of tears. All my lovelies are buried there.
I guess we have to remember to have been blessed to have them for a time. They know we did they best for them. Its just so hard to let go and deal with the pain of losing them. I still have 6 dogs and 7 cats. I love them all so dearly.
Take care and prayers are with you.
Linda
Each day is precious...take a few of those minutes for yourself. |
| vintagegrl |
Posted - May 02 2008 : 5:57:29 PM
Kathy, I have to second shepardgirl, I know that if we should meet we would be fast friends. I love animals, and am truly heartbroken when I hear about any animal suffering. I know Bagel is happy in heaven waiting for you.
Jeanette |
| shepherdgirl |
Posted - May 02 2008 : 09:01:34 AM
You have such a soft heart for animals Kathy!
To me, that's a GOOD thing! I never could trust a person that didn't melt at the sight of an animal in need! GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!
I am there right now giving you a tight sqeeeeeze!!
From one passionate critter lover to another ~~~ Tracy |
| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - May 01 2008 : 10:46:14 AM
I brought my little Bagel home today, he is in a lovely cedar box with a lock and key- hard to imagine that much love tucked in a box though ....I can see him in my mind's eye running like wild in a place free of pain and care.
Took Emily the nearly hairless cat for an injection today and was able to pick up Bagel. She gets steroid injections every so often. Never figured out why she pulls her hair out but she was starving to death when we rescued her many years ago. She is a pretty calico and quite unique to be sure!
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| mrsmorgen |
Posted - May 01 2008 : 04:38:48 AM
I am so sorry for your loss. it is never easy. our prayers and thoughts are with you.
morgen
I am beginning to learn that it is the sweet, simple things of life which are the real ones after all..
laura ingalls wilder
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| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - Apr 29 2008 : 12:13:53 PM
Of course Tracy - send me an email of you and your family of furry ones, I will send you pictures too! I love baby animals :)
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| shepherdgirl |
Posted - Apr 29 2008 : 11:30:18 AM
I'd love to see the pictures of your goat Kathy, AND your "Charlee!" If I can ever figure out how to post pictures on this darn computer, I would probably clog the system with them!! We, or rather "I," have so many animals it's not even funny. But none of them lack for hugs or kisses--- or COOKIES!!!
In fact, some of them (me included!) need to be put on a serious diet! My mare looks like she's about to explode! My older boys (ages 18 & 16 1/2) think it's funny how fat she's gotten. NOT ME!!!
They got a serious scolding when I found that they had shoved all the "leftovers" from last years hay (about 100-200 bales worth!) out the back barn door where miss "PIGGY" could have a free-for-all food fest! They should have put the hay where the old mares are, as they can always gain a few extra pounds, but instead, they fed it to the fatest horse on the farm! I swear that horse was an "Air Fern" in another life, she's that easy to care for! Anyway, HAPPY Grooming! and I'm so glad that you have other fur friends around to keep you smiling! hugs ~~ Tracy
(PS-- I'm looking forward to having goat babies around again! It's been a long time. If I can't POST pictures on the site when they arrive, I can e-mail some to you if you'd like!) |
| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - Apr 29 2008 : 10:23:29 AM
Thank you Jonni - I know when i lost June you sent me a sympathy card that I still have. I feel the pain lessen a bit. Tomorrow I have to take my calico for a check up, she is wheezing and they called me today to tell me that Bagel's remains are back already so I will pick him up - I am sure I will be crying again.
Tracy, you will have little time to breath but it will be worth every little bahhhhh mahhhhhhh you hear! I raised my Nubian from a few days old and it was as close as I ever came to having a real baby, and you are right about the mischief they get in to - I will have to post some pictures of Billy Bahh Bahh when he was a baby. He is now taller than me and about 10 times stronger.
Well gals, it is off to the dog groomer with Charlee the cocker spaniel - the one I almost lost some time back, she is my smallest cocker - and she has a head of her own.
Love you
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| shepherdgirl |
Posted - Apr 29 2008 : 10:16:56 AM
Trust me Kathy, I plan on visiting those puppies often. So often in fact, that my friend is probably going to get SICK of looking at me!!
But then, my lambs and my kids will be coming soon, so I might not have so much time to fawn over the puppies. Especially with the goat kids here. They are like JUMPING BEANS and are forever into some kind of mischief!
It's been two years since I bred the goats, and then, only two doe's had babies (3 kids between them) This year, I bred EIGHT does, and one of them is already HUGE, (with at least a month or more still to go) so I'm going to have my hands full! Wish me luck ladies, I'm going to need it if I'm going to get through birthing season with all my hair still attached! (he..he...he!)
Oh, and I will have more GLORIOUS tales of "Eli the Maremma." I think YOU would appreciate his stories Kathy. I mean, how often do you hear of a HUGE 120lb+ ball of snow white fur adopting a 6lb lamb or a 2-4lb kid? Quite and amazing tale that repeats itself every single year here on our farm. Hugs and smiles! ~~Tracy |
| KYgurlsrbest |
Posted - Apr 29 2008 : 08:49:09 AM
Thought about you, Kathy and Bonnie (Beemoosie) on Saturday when I was going through drawers and cleaning up. I ran across 4 sympathy cards folks had given me when I had to put Lil' to sleep. I started crying all over again reading them, and thought about how you both are feeling, still. I recall moving through my day like I was some sort of a phantom of myself. Going to work with my mind wandering and dreading the walk through the front door at home. I know that these days will fill you with memories like no other, and write them down, journal, whatever it takes to work through them and keep them. These memories are, apparently, just under our surface, even after several years.
Farmgirl Sister #80, thanks to a very special farmgirl from the Bluegrass..."She was built like a watch, a study in balance ... with a neck and head so refined, like a drawing by DaVinci"...
NY Newsday sportswriter Bill Nack describing filly, Ruffian.
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| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - Apr 29 2008 : 05:52:21 AM
Well Tracy - all I can say is maybe you just reincarnated one of our dogs into that new puppies life - I adore puppies and eachone is a miracle. I love watching them as they pad their raspberry colored paws at their moms belly as they nurse with such gusto. Give every puppy a kiss from me and I pray they will all have good health and long long lives.
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| shepherdgirl |
Posted - Apr 28 2008 : 8:03:02 PM
Now Bagel would be happy to know that you can smile through your tears! Can I give you all ANOTHER smile? While Bagel and all our dog (and other animal) buddies are up there romping around in heaven, I got to help bring a tiny puppy INTO this world today.
My friend called while I was posting my replies on this site and said her pregnant lab was acting funny. I told her she was probably getting ready to have her puppies. Sure enough, she called me back a short while later and said she'd had ONE puppy and that I needed to get over to her house right away!!! When I got there, there were THREE gorgeous puppies! Two beautiful golden boys and a lovely white little girl.
Anxiously, and in great AWE we watched as each tiny little pup was born. About the 6th one, I noticed something wasn't quite right. The puppy seemed to be gasping for breath and I told my friend that it looked like it was in trouble. It was only part way out and the cord was not visible. This was my friend's first eperience with puppies, so it was up to me. The mama dog looked at me with those big brown eyes asking for help, so what else could I do but reach out and give those tiny paws a tug!
Needless to say, Mama and babies are all doing well. Each and every one is beautiful and healthy and surprisingly HEAVY for such tiny things! Mom certainly didn't miss a meal! (he..he...he!) And for a first time mother she did an EXCELLENT job!!! ~~Tracy |
| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - Apr 28 2008 : 6:40:06 PM
Jeanette - when I had lost my first mini horse I was appalled the way they came to take him away - no tarp, no dignity - they hooked a hook on him and dragged him to the back of a big truck and just hoisted him up there - it was undignified and for the price they charged it was disgusting. When I asked what they do with them - you know we all heard as a kid that they go to the glue factory - he told me they are grinded down to make fertilizer. Well, when I lost my horse Buddy - I was not about to let that happen - we took him on a tarp to move him and as sad as it was, I could not help but see the humor in two people trying to find a place in the woods to dig this giantic hole - deep enough for him - it was getting dark out and we were had a flashlight and I was so afraid someone would see through the woods and think we were burying a body - If it were not for my sense of humor, I do not think I would be here. I am glad I have broken through some of my sadness to smile.
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| vintagegrl |
Posted - Apr 28 2008 : 4:50:45 PM
Kathy, Reading the last few posts I was bawling. Then I read your last line about that Mafia movie and I busted out laughing. It was so unexpected. I know these wonderful posts from all of these compassionate farmgirls are comforting you. |
| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - Apr 28 2008 : 2:18:23 PM
I had Bagel privately cremated to be returned to me - when I die it is my wish to have all my animals ashes and mine mixed together and then returned to the earth (also my dad's ashes will be mixed in). Talking about digging holes, we buried my minature horse here - looked like a scene from the movie Goodfellas.
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| shepherdgirl |
Posted - Apr 28 2008 : 12:01:14 PM
I didn't want to bring my dog home at first, and have to face the task of burying her, but when I asked what they were going to do with her, and they told me, I couldn't leave her behind. They put her in a box for me (a BIG box-- she was a Springer/lab X) and put her in the trunk of my car. Before I even got home I knew just where I was going to put her. I backed the car up to the spot and started digging, but there were a lot of tree roots I had to hack through and it was quite a struggle.
My dear husband (who's NOT an animal lover and doesn't understand my passion) watched me struggle for awhile, asking me "Why don't you just bury her somewhere else?" I told him "No! she's going to rest here." He knew I was determined, so he took the shovel from my hands and dug the hole as deep as the roots would allow and put her, box and all, in the hole for me.
I've never loved another human being as much as I loved him in that moment! Though, after nearly 19yrs of marriage and MANY critters later, he's still digging those holes for me. And STILL shaking his head, but never again has he asked me "Why don't you bury them somewhere else?" when he sees me digging with that shovel. He just lets out a sigh and takes it from me if I can't do it myself.
Oh Kathy, it was not my intention to make you cry! I just wanted to let you know that your little buddy is VERY happy now!!! He misses you too, but he's happy and he's spending his time making some new friends until he sees you again! Hugs--- Tracy |
| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - Apr 28 2008 : 09:24:05 AM
Tracy your post is beautiful and made me cry. I guess it is selfish of me to want him here still instead of heaven but he will sure have a lot of friends there, my shepherd died of cancer last year and they loved eachother. Luckily, Bagel ate up till the end and he loved to eat, but his breathing was becoming more difficult and I did not want to see him suffer to breath - I could not bring him home to bury him, it would be too hard. When I lost my last corgi a day before her seventh birthday to a third degree heart block, my husband had to literally pull me off Emma Jean to bury her - it was a devastating loss - little Bagel reminded me so much of her, I think that is why he and I clicked so well.
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| gardencottage |
Posted - Apr 28 2008 : 09:08:49 AM
Oh I am so sorry for your loss!
We have had to make that choice and it's so terribly hard...
Thinking of you!
It is the sweet, simple things of life which are the real ones after all.
~Laura Ingalls Wilder |
| shepherdgirl |
Posted - Apr 28 2008 : 08:59:31 AM
I like what Diane said-- about ALL our animals waiting for us at the gates of heaven!!! If that's the case, there will be a menagerie waiting for ME that would rival the population of critters on Noah's Ark!!! Oh what a happy thought!!! I have lossed a lot of animals over the years, but the pain never lessens no matter how many of them pass on.
I lost a dog to Lymphocarcoma at the age of 7. I'd had her since she was 7wks old. I had the same choice to make as Kathy and many of the other ladies here. It was a very sad time. And a VERY hard choice to make, but she was a good dog and I could not stand to see her suffer anymore.
My first clue to her illness was that she had gone suddenly, and totally blind. I asked the vet if I'd "Missed" anything regarding such a devastating illness, and he told me "no." He'd said that the type of cancer she had usually struck fast and hard and that there was little that could be done for it. When she stopped eating, (her most favorite pastime!) I knew it was time. I brought her home and buried her under the red rose bush that I'd planted for my mother a few years before, when SHE had passed away.
Each year that rose is always the FIRST to bloom, and the LAST to stop blooming-- sometimes in the dead of winter. I look at it as a sign that they are together in heaven and both of them are sending their love to me through the red blooms of that rosebush.
Take heart Kathy-- Bagel is no longer suffering and it takes true love to have the strength to let our beloved pets go in such a peaceful way. It's much harder for US than it is for THEM. After all, they are letting go of the physical pain, even though it causes great emotional pain for us. Think of him up there now-- running, playing and chasing all the other dogs. He's happy now and he would not want to know that your are here crying for him, but I know he understands. My thoughts and prayers are with you Kathy. Hugs--- Tracy |
| babysmama |
Posted - Apr 27 2008 : 6:02:46 PM
I am so sorry about Bagel and how you are suffering with him being gone. The worst thing about being a pet owner is that their life spans are so short compared to ours. It is so hard to let them go but it is also important to know that sometimes it is in their best interests not to let them suffer for our own benefit of having them near. I am glad that he had a good life with someone who loved him. HUGS to you and I hope each day is easier with more happy than sad memories.
-Elizabeth |
| EnchantedWoodsGirl |
Posted - Apr 27 2008 : 4:53:00 PM
Having the fibro does not help - it only seems to intensify any stress that comes in my life - I will sleep well tonight and let the healing process begin.....I am best friends with the breeder where he came from and maybe towards the end of the year I will get another corgi - she sells the best corgis and I trust her and she feels so bad but I do not think cancer is to blame on anyone- Funny story about that is the first dog I bought from her was born the day after my sister died - Linda, the lady I bought my corgi from is as old as my sister would be - we have never lost touch even though we are many miles apart, me in NJ and her in Iowa - I honestly believe that people come into our lives for a reason, and also pets - if I had not taken in Bagel as a border and then begged for him to stay and not move to Hong Kong- he would have never touched my life as he has. All of your posts are helping me cope - Poor Barney - I feel so bad about that too Mary Jane - I just want to tell people to touch their dogs, get to know how their bodies feel - know what is normal and what is not - just like we touch our own bodies - poor little things can't tell us what is wrong or where they hurt.
Kathy of the Enchanted Wood
Farmgirl Sister #59
http://enchantedwoodmusings.blogspot.com/
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| napafarmhouse1885 |
Posted - Apr 27 2008 : 3:48:30 PM
kathy,
i am sending hugs and prayers to you from napa. i know what it is like to lose a beloved pet. i had a cat for 20yrs and we had to put her down due to cancer. my heart broke. my sister hugged me and told me that when we die all the pets we ever had in our lifetime will be waiting for us at the gates of heaven to greet us and show us the way...still provides comfort..and i never take my dog for granted..not for a minute..
remember, you are not alone.. you have hundreds of farmgirls sending you love and hugs.
best,
napafarmhouse1885
www.napafarmhouse1885.com
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