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| GirlwithHook |
Posted - Feb 05 2014 : 1:25:45 PM
Well girls...it's been a rough couple of months. The weekend after Thanksgiving, Ric's mom took offense at some imaginary insult and got him so worked up that he beat the heck out of me AND scared my bird. My cousin came down to rescue me, and...I'm home. I'm living just outside of my hometown, in a location I have always loved.
I have not filed formal charges (that was the deal if he let me leave quietly), but the police and my lawyer are aware of the situation just in case. My bird's nightmares seem to have abated, but mine have not. There is a place in town that offers free counseling to abuse victims, but I'm scared to leave the house most days. Makes it hard to job-hunt, but I had already applied for disability due to some chronic conditions so we'll see.
Right now I'm taking care of my cousin's three-year-old (ADHD and disruptive behavior disorder, oh boy), taking long walks in the hills, and doing more crocheting than I have in years.
Ric e-mails me constantly begging me to come home, swearing he will change...I want to believe the fool, but I know I can't. As for that evil mother of his...grr.
I am free but feel like a prisoner.
A hook, a book, and a good cup of coffee.... |
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| Room To Grow |
Posted - May 08 2014 : 05:04:29 AM
Alyce, Dont go back..I know the situation oh so well. He will never change. I have helped young women before because I grew up in a place of abuse. I have a saying."A leopards spots may fade, but they never go away" Saying that..he may say he will change...but he will not...so if you go back in his mind you will take whatever he dishes out and you will come back when ever he wants you to. PLEASE....DONT GO BACK...move forward and take this as something that has made you a stronger woman to leave..
Deborah
I am now on my forever farm and very happy and blessed...GOD is so GOOD!!! |
| Bear5 |
Posted - May 01 2014 : 3:55:08 PM
Alyce: Starting over is a new beginning. Be strong, stay strong.
Marly
"It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth- and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up- that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had." Elisabeth Kurler-Ross |
| naturemaiden |
Posted - Apr 15 2014 : 02:35:10 AM
Alyce,
be strong and believe in yourself. these men dont change, i've been through it. they will cry, apologize, say they will never do it again, but they always do. it's hard to believe that someone we thought we loved could be this way but it's not your fault. it is hard to start over and is sure scary, but you will be better for it.
Connie
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| Alee |
Posted - Mar 26 2014 : 7:41:18 PM
Alyce- I haven't been on for a while, but I do remember the struggles you have had with him in the past. I am so sorry that you had to endure through this. You are so strong for getting away. Do you remember a fellow farmgirl Lisa London? She published a book about her time with her ex husband who was also physically and mentally abusive. I respect you so much for taking care of yourself and protecting yourself. You are so strong and amazing. I hope you give yourself all the time you need to heal. *hugs*
Alee
Farmgirl Sister #8
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| marlee |
Posted - Mar 26 2014 : 10:33:44 AM
A new life is waiting for you sister! Happy for you!
Hugs Marlee
God is the painter, he paints the picture. And his son builds it, for he is the Master Carpenter!
Silly Boys Trucks Are For Girls |
| MrsTracy |
Posted - Mar 20 2014 : 07:27:46 AM
Thanking God for giving you the courage to walk away and to not only survive but thrive!
Aspiring Titus II and Proverbs 31 Lady. |
| hudsonsinaf |
Posted - Mar 19 2014 : 6:49:13 PM
Thankful to "hear" from you again! Praying the counseling you receive continues you down the path of healing! Praying for you!
~ Shannon
http://hudson-everydayblessings.blogspot.com/ |
| jan49829 |
Posted - Mar 19 2014 : 6:03:49 PM
Alyce, things are going better for you. Keep up the great determination that you have. Things will work out for you. Sending good vibes for your upcoming show. I hope it is a success for you. Hugs!!!
Jan
Farmgirl Sister #3340
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| rphelps4 |
Posted - Mar 19 2014 : 5:32:27 PM
Alyce I am so happy for you, just take one day at a time and with each new day you will find a new great thing you have forgotten about yourself, and a renewed strength, I wish you all the best on your up coming gallery show! Roxanna |
| wooliespinner |
Posted - Mar 19 2014 : 3:10:39 PM
Oh Alyce glad you are going to be able to get counceling soon. Glad you are doing better and moving forward with your life. Congrats on the upcoming gallery show !!! Thats so exciting and a positive step forward for YOU. You focus on you and take good care of yourself.Breath and enjoy your new life. Its gonna be a good one I truly believe that. Hugs.
Linda
Raspberry Run Farm
Nubian Dairy Goats |
| GirlwithHook |
Posted - Mar 19 2014 : 2:13:52 PM
My insurance kicks in on April 1st, so I can start counseling then.
In about a week, I will have my remaining belongings. August 1st, Ric will be a part of my past. I have blocked any means of contact for Ric or his mother.
It's all so overwhelming sometimes. I burst into tears at odd times. I had a good dream last night for the first time in months. Thank goodness for you gals, and for my offline friends and family (all wonderfully supportive).
I know of a few guys who are interested in me, but I am SO not there right now. Right now I am focusing on my bird, my nephews, and the gallery show I have coming up.
Thank you all so very much. I love you gals (and the guys who maintain the place).
A hook, a book, and a good cup of coffee.... |
| prayin granny |
Posted - Mar 06 2014 : 3:34:09 PM
Alyce,
So sorry for your pain and struggles. I agree with most that counseling would be helpful. If not an option right now for you.....there are online support boards out there.
You are strong and brave to take care of yourself and do what's best for yourself and your pet! Have a bird myself. Enjoy yours and allow it to help you begin to heal!
Sending hugs
Blessings,
Linda
http://grannysbirds.blogspot.com/
Country at Heart
'For I know the plans I have for you......'
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| jpbluesky |
Posted - Mar 06 2014 : 11:42:00 AM
Praying that your bad dreams and hurtful memories heal soon. Do not go back, no matter how tempted. You have taken steps in the right direction and do not go backward. God bless you and may you find the peace and joy you deserve.
Farmgirl #31
www.blueskyjeannie.blogspot.com
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| teckelhut |
Posted - Mar 03 2014 : 8:19:27 PM
First off I must tell you how sorry I am to hear that you were an innocent victim of a violent temper.
Second of all. I am very VERY proud of you for leaving him. A beating now could be a killing later. Best you stay away from him. If he does continue to bother you even after you have told him not to, that is considered stalking on his part and that IS a federal offence now.
Sussie of Teckelhut Acres
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Certified Humane
Deschutes Junction, OR
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| Beverley |
Posted - Feb 11 2014 : 8:09:48 PM
Oh Alyce, I am so proud of you for leaving. that took a lot of courage that you probably did not realize you had. You are out now, do not go back for any reason. Cut any connections with him. Do get counseling for yourself. It will take time to get your life back, but you will and you will feel so much better when you come through this on the other end. Prayers will be said for you...
Folks will know how large your soul is by the way you treat a dog....Charles F. Doran
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| hudsonsinaf |
Posted - Feb 11 2014 : 08:44:47 AM
Alyce,
(((HUGS))) and prayers are coming your way! You know what is best for your situation.... use your heart, but also your head. I'm a strong believer in forgiveness, but also in self preservation and learning from the past. I do believe people can change, but only when they truly repent and get a new heart from Jesus Christ. Unless that happens, I too would recommend cutting all relations with him (if you don't want to get a new e-mail address, you can always just block his e-mail address). Counseling is a wonderful tool to help you heal from the inside out. If you are a Christian, I would recommend a Biblical counselor. If you are not, I would recommend finding one that is truly empathetic and understands that you did NOTHING to deserve what happened!
~ Shannon
http://hudson-everydayblessings.blogspot.com/ |
| rphelps4 |
Posted - Feb 09 2014 : 7:50:45 PM
Alyce, I sure you know he hasn't changed, having been in a abusive relationship for 13 years I can tell you have to let him know you are in control of you life now, a restraining order is a must, it gives the law the tool they need, counseling is also a must for you, I went for two and a half years and so thankful I did, You probably don't even realize how this has all affected you, abusers take everything from you, and you don't even know it, try to get a copy of CO-DEPENDENT NO MORE. Now you put your big girl panties on and stop being a victim, you left him, just remember the courage that took, call tomorrow and get yourself some help, become the survivor I know you can be! Spread you wings and fly little bird. Roxanna |
| Rosemary |
Posted - Feb 09 2014 : 5:59:58 PM
Alyce, file charges. Get a restraining order. Why leave the door open for him to come back? By not filing charges, you're giving him mixed signals and he will continue to think he can weasel his way back into your life.
He needs to face serious consequences for the serious harm he has done. The courts often require convicted abusers to participate in anger management and other programs. Without this intervention he probably will attack you or someone else again, or even kill. |
| MagnoliaWhisper |
Posted - Feb 07 2014 : 12:24:10 PM
I would press charges too, not only for yourself but for the next woman!
Secondly, change your email address, I know it's not fair but do it. Disconnect from him completely. You have to break those bonds. It will hurt like crazy.... but after time, lots of time with out any contact at all, it will get much better.
http://www.heathersprairie.blogspot.com |
| HealingTouch |
Posted - Feb 07 2014 : 12:14:35 PM
Alyce,
DO NOT GO BACK. He won't change. You have to change. You already did. You left. That's the first step and you can do it. God did not put you on this earth to be abused. Where there's no respect there is nothing else. Go for counseling and get your confidence back. You are the daughter of The King. You are in my prayers.
Be Blessed and Be a Blessing,
Darlene
Sister 1922
God first, everything else after!
When Satan's knocking at your door, just say "Jesus will you get that for me?"
When it gets to hard to stand, Kneel!
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| wooliespinner |
Posted - Feb 06 2014 : 10:22:12 AM
Alyce glad you are somewhere safe. I agree with the other ladies and please seek council. Its the best thing you could do for yourself. And you need to be good to yourself and let them help you with making good choices for you.Take care and be safe.
Linda
Raspberry Run Farm
Nubian Dairy Goats |
| Marcy |
Posted - Feb 06 2014 : 09:32:35 AM
Alyce,
I am so sorry that you have to go through this. If there is anything at all that I can do, please let me know. Will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
big hugs
Marcy
Farmgirl #170
Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness that you are able to give...Eleanor Roosevelt
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| Annika |
Posted - Feb 06 2014 : 09:00:29 AM
Alyce (((Hugs))) Be strong and do fall for the promises. I did it for years and was a virtual prisoner cut off from my family and friends. Do not believe him, if he's done once, he'll do it again because he successful the first time and power is addictive. Seek the counseling and give yourself permission to take care of yourself. Being assaulted by someone that you trusted is a deeply disturbing thing to have to live with. Remember that you have friends here <3
You must do the thing you think you cannot do
-Eleanor Roosevelt
She with the most chickens wins 
Annika
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| Ninibini |
Posted - Feb 06 2014 : 03:12:02 AM
I'm so proud of you for being so strong, Alyce, and for choosing health, safety and life! You GO farmgirl! I know how confusing, difficult and painful this can be, and I think you're just amazing for taking these necessary steps. The girls are so right: counseling will be such a big help. Please do call - you will feel SO much better and more confident, please believe us. I will be praying for you to find your path and quickly begin to receive all the blessings God has in store for you. God bless you, sister! We love you and are here for you! Hugs - Nini
Farmgirl Sister #1974
God gave us two hands... one to help ourselves, and one to help others!
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| Dapple Grey Lady |
Posted - Feb 05 2014 : 7:17:00 PM
{{{{Hugs}}}}} Hope that things get better for you.
~ Betty ~
Farmgirl Sister # 5589 |
