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| goneriding |
Posted - Nov 11 2007 : 06:24:27 AM
Well, after we drop this trailer and pick up another one, we're headed home for the rest of the week. I think I'm kind of depressed but not enuf to see a doctor just yet.
Last nite my hubby and I had a row to end all rows. He's still defending his family and let me know ALL my shortcomings with them. I gave up and just don't give a flip anymore. I don't mean this as 'poor pitiful me' just stated as a fact.
I wrestled with this all nite and think I may have to go my seperate way as I'm not happy anymore. After an incident this past summer I have felt myself falling away from my hubby, a sense of betrayal. No matter how I try to tell myself that it all worked out, I just can't make this feeling stop.
Maybe some time apart would be the best thing for the short run. As before, this is only a vent as writing it seems to help, seeing it onscreen. I'll come back and read it again and maybe see some insights I didn't see before.
It's been an incredible help also for me to know that I'm not the only one dealing with whacked in-laws...that's what's so great here...
Thanks for listening again!! 
Winona 
Don't sweat the small stuff...
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| goneriding |
Posted - Nov 11 2007 : 4:35:58 PM
Yep, we had that jackass moment a couple of weeks ago and it was the almost last straw, now we're to the last straw. Fortunately I have my CDL so I don't depend on anyone to support me and it's a good feeling. We share all our money but I'm not beholden to anyone, if that makes sense.
I'm actually feeling better and better. I feel a sense of loss and a weight on my chest but I know I'll live thru it all. I'm sort of hiding out in a funny movie that I have going on the TV.
Winona ;-)
Don't sweat the small stuff...
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| therusticcottage |
Posted - Nov 11 2007 : 4:23:59 PM
Winona -- what I've found with my husband after 18 years together is that he is NOT going to quit defending his parents. He will choose them every time and, in the end, he makes me look like the jackass. This past week my MIL said something rude to our 13 year old daughter. I told my husband about it and he defended his mother and got mad at me. Never again. So, long story short, you're probably better off just not saying anything about his family and don't be around them if possible.
Maybe a break is a good thing. Been thinking that myself!
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| goneriding |
Posted - Nov 11 2007 : 2:06:59 PM
Actually, since I made this decision this morning, I'm already feeling a peace. Just trying too hard I guess. Thanks to all for listening to me.
Winona :-)
Don't sweat the small stuff...
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| CountryBorn |
Posted - Nov 11 2007 : 1:50:30 PM
Sometimes a break isn't such a bad idea. It gives you a chance to think about things and not have the tensions of fighting wearing you out. You can step back and see the situation a bit clearer. If you find yourself a lot calmer and happier you may have your answer. It doesn't mean it has to be over. But, the distance would give you both a chance to think, to figure out what is really important to you and what you want out of life.
Hugs to you,
MJ
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