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| farmmilkmama |
Posted - Aug 03 2011 : 3:52:57 PM
So I'm out in the coop, cleaning it, stuffing new straw in the nesting boxes, cleaning out the water, moving stuff around, saying hi to the baby chicks in the brooder...and all of a sudden I get all emotional. I start getting all teary-eyed. I get weepy.  I start thinking even though the last six months of us trying to get a farm and having it fall through TWICE have really not been fun, and now we are still in a place we thought we'd be gone from by now, and I really thought things would be so much different, and I don't know when things are going to change, and I hate to think too much about the future financial issues if we don't find a place to move to before next Spring...even with everything that is going on...I STILL love this life. I still love what we have. I still love this.
So there I was crying like a big 'ol baby in the barn. And you gals were the only ones I thought would understand.
--* FarmMilkMama *--
Farmgirl Sister #1086
Be yourself.
Everyone else is already taken.
-Oscar Wilde
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| knitnpickinatune |
Posted - Aug 12 2011 : 09:42:05 AM
I forgot to mention too-when Dad purchased the house/farm in NM I was so looking forward to moving there-as it was we wound up renting the house out. And for all the disappointment of not being able to get out of the area where we live,once again we were looked after & spared. Last winter was the 1st time on record southern NM went to a -3 and some part of the well broke. This summer has seen record breaking heat and draught. Not to say we will never move to NM but we've missed some hectic times for sure & have been kept safe & sound. 
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| farmmilkmama |
Posted - Aug 12 2011 : 08:56:42 AM
Nice post, Sherrie!
Thanks gals for all the support. It's nice to know there are others out there like me. :)
--* FarmMilkMama *--
Farmgirl Sister #1086
Be yourself.
Everyone else is already taken.
-Oscar Wilde
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| knitnpickinatune |
Posted - Aug 12 2011 : 08:45:04 AM
Amy,I have had those moments too,and Dorinda,for whatever reason,when I break down it's usually in the shower also. I don't know if it's because it's a spot of guaranteed privacy or what.
Like many of you,my present life is nowhere near what I expected by the time I reached 48 (tomorrow) I live at home with my Dad in his cluttered with collectibles house that needs work inside & out. I had imagined by this time when I was in my 20's I would either be married or if single,at least own & live in my own house,well established in some career,living the same happy but modest lifestyle I grew up in.
And yet-I am amazingly happy and content living as I do. I have learned to appreciate the beauty of the sunflowers as they grow,to see tomatoes ripen on the vine & appreciate for the first time the miracle of vegatables that you grow yourself. I've had the freedom to start my own business and see that grow and grow-there's light at the end of the tunnel now as far as leaving the part time job I don't like. I've been able to take up instruments I never thought I would like fiddle,mandolin,and soon,Irish tenor banjo. (All instruments I purchased myself) And even tho I do get lonely for a sweetheart from time to time,I have accepted the fact that this may never be for whatever reason,and yet be open as it may still happen. I feel like the Goddess is always watching out for me and guiding me thru this life,and that I'm full of gratitude for my life as I'm living it now.
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| darlystippie |
Posted - Aug 10 2011 : 5:12:39 PM
Oops. I got a message saying the MJF server was not responding and it didn't appear to take my message. Now I see it did take it and I posted essentially the same thing twice. And now, here's #3 to say - I'm sorry.
oxox - Sister #3284 - Darlys
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| darlystippie |
Posted - Aug 10 2011 : 4:35:21 PM
Amy - I cry at parades, at sentimental movies, during elections, I cried when things were rough, I got the hiccups when my husband asked me to marry him though. But, through it all, and my life has blessedly been pretty long and hopefully going to go a bit further ... I found that sometimes ... You've got to cry. And that's okay.
I lived half my life in Minnesota ... Duluth and the Twin Cities ... now those mosquitoes could make me cry!
oxox - Sister #3284 - Darlys
That is the best ... to laugh with someone because you both think the same things are funny. |
| darlystippie |
Posted - Aug 10 2011 : 4:31:45 PM
Amy - I cry at parades, at sentimental movies, during elections, I cried when things were rough, I got the hiccups when my husband asked me to marry him though. But, through it all, and my life has blessedly been pretty long and hopefully going to go a bit further ... I found that sometimes ... You've got to cry. And that's okay.
I lived half my life in Minnesota ... Duluth and the Twin Cities ... now those mosquitoes could make me cry!
oxox - Sister #3284 - Darlys
That is the best ... to laugh with someone because you both think the same things are funny. |
| LisaH |
Posted - Aug 10 2011 : 08:57:31 AM
Amy, I agree with Karen. Focus on the positives...the things you do have and then things will fall into place. I'm a firm believer that things happen in His time...not ours and His timing is always perfect...event if we don't see it that way right now. Keep the faith. It will happen and I hope soon.
Lisa
An Indiana Suburban Farmgirl |
| missusprim |
Posted - Aug 07 2011 : 06:31:54 AM
Amy, I am a firm believer that all things happen for a reason. Your time is coming, and the sweetest part about is that it'll be that much 'sweeter' when it does.
Nothing wrong with a good cry. And nothing wrong with feeling sorry for yourself....you're only human. Just take a deep breath and be thankful for what you DO have. KWIM?
Good things come to those that wait!
Farmgirl Sister #2984
"Animals are such agreeable friends - they ask no questions, they pass no criticisms." George Eliot
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| farmmilkmama |
Posted - Aug 06 2011 : 08:00:11 AM
More water indeed, Mary Beth. Thank goodness and and the baby are ok! :) I'm glad to know I'm not the only one having the occasional sobfest. I guess the difference between us and the rest of the world is that even though sometimes we are crying out of frustration, we are also sometimes crying for appreciation of the overwhelming blessings we have!
--* FarmMilkMama *--
Farmgirl Sister #1086
Be yourself.
Everyone else is already taken.
-Oscar Wilde
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| Okie Farm Girl |
Posted - Aug 06 2011 : 07:35:13 AM
Oh Amy. Bless your heart! You are soooo normal and how awesome that you can recognize how precious life is in the middle of expectations being put on hold or squashed totally!! And just to let you know, I cried yesterday morning as I was driving to town (about 30 minutes) to be with my daugter and her husband for another ultrasound to see if there are any problems because of some things they have found and I just started crying because I am so grateful for God's protection of my family, for life and the liberty in this country to be able to do the very thing I was getting ready to go do - see my new grandbaby before she's even here!! But I was also crying at the new responsibility that is coming my way as a new grandmother and how amazing it is that my baby is having a baby!!! Oh my gosh. So again, bless you and just know that if you didn't cry once in awhile, you'd be a hardened, ungrateful soul indeed!!! And BTW, her numbers were better and the diagnosis was that she is getting dehydrated in this extreme heat. More water! :-)
Mary Beth
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The Sovereign Lord is my strength - Habakkuk 3:19 |
| grace gerber |
Posted - Aug 06 2011 : 07:17:46 AM
Amy I too wondered why this normally up beat gal lately has been reduced to tears. My animals have thought Mom must be going mad or is ill??? I think at times when we have planned so carefully and it seems as if the universe is not rising up to greet us we wonder about our judgements, decissions and plans. I have been exploring the idea of instead of me trying to plan everything I rather let go and let that which is suppose to happen - happen. Sometimes it is not what we wish but on further reflection everything does happen in it's own time. We are not promised tomorrow but rather we are to live in today... Cry away Amy it is good for the soul but just don't get those little chick too wet!
Grace Gerber
Larkspur Funny Farm and Fiber Art Studio
Where the spirits are high and the fiber is deep
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| farmmilkmama |
Posted - Aug 06 2011 : 06:11:42 AM
Thanks, gals! I knew you would understand! It is so nice to know there are other people out there who "get it"!
--* FarmMilkMama *--
Farmgirl Sister #1086
Be yourself.
Everyone else is already taken.
-Oscar Wilde
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www.thehmmmschoolingmom.blogspot.com |
| Cabin Dreamer |
Posted - Aug 06 2011 : 05:59:25 AM
Amy, I completely understand. I have had a couple of emotional days this week as well. Maybe hormones, maybe frustration, who knows. I had this past week off from work, thought - I'm gonna get a lot of stuff done around the house this week. I actually did get a lot done, but I could only look at the additonal things that needed to be done. I tried to get back to some projects like sewing and baking as an "outlet". That only added to my frustration. Then I reflected on what I am grateful for and today is a new day. hang in there!
Farmgirl #1954 |
| Dorinda |
Posted - Aug 06 2011 : 05:15:05 AM
I get teary eyed when I am in the shower for some reason. I guess that is about the only place I get any alone time and I start thinking about things that I have no control over anyways. Then I start thinking what a DoDo bird I am for ruining my shower. Lately I think about my grand son whom I will probably never get to see again. My husband keeps informing me that I will get to see him. I hope he is right. Anyways smiles to everyone. Big bear hugs too!!!
Seize The Day!
Dorinda |
| Annika |
Posted - Aug 04 2011 : 6:54:43 PM
All of you crying ladies are making me all teary! *BIG HUGS* Things are just so tough right now due to the horrible economy. I understand perfectly. I so want to move up from this mobile home that I live in, but right now I'm trying to scrape together enough to get it painted and the roof fixed before winter. I DO love life and am eternally grateful that I own my little home outright. I get all emotional at the oddest times and sometime over just a snippet of a dream or a memory
Love to all of you !
Annika
Farmgirl & sister #13
Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication. ~Leonardo DaVinci
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| cheneygal |
Posted - Aug 04 2011 : 6:28:28 PM
All the time Amy, all the time. I have been trying to sell my place since last summer, I lost my DH 18 mos. ago, he mentioned, before he passed that I should probably "move back home", little town I grew up in, where we still own a house. I want that to be so very much, and many times I'll just sit out in my lawnchair and bawl my eyes out.....why isn't it selling, why aren't things going the way I want, why can't I "go back home"......but ya know what, when the time is right, it will all fall together, and a good cry is so good for the soul, and besides that I always have a good nights sleep after a good cry!!!
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| kristin sherrill |
Posted - Aug 04 2011 : 08:19:56 AM
Amy, I knoe what you mean. SOmetimes I think how lucky I am to live right here with all we have and get emotional too. I so hope you get your home soon. I know how that is. It took a whole year to get out house sold then we had to live at my friend's in her apt for 3 months before we found this place. So sometimes our dreams take way longer than we hoped for but do not give up! It is out there and you will know when you find it. I knew right away this place was ours the first time I saw it. Actually I had seen it many times before while out looking for houses. Just never thought it would ever be ours. keep looking. You never know what's around that corner.
Kris
Happiness is simple. |
| woolgirl |
Posted - Aug 04 2011 : 08:13:10 AM
I had one today. I was out hanging my husband's nasty workout shirts on the line, and I was just overwhelmed with how much I love my life. The act of it what exactly what my blog is about: being a military family living on base but trying still maintain a farmgirl life. Luckily no neighbors were out to see me blubbering!
Liz
Farmgirl #1947
www.militaryfarmgirl.blogspot.com |
| Ingrid |
Posted - Aug 04 2011 : 07:29:56 AM
I've had those moments at the oddest times, I used to tell myself to stop being silly, but now I just let it out. Sometimes a good cry is great for us.
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| nabrown42 |
Posted - Aug 03 2011 : 6:01:38 PM
Life is so hard sometimes and doesn't go the way we have planned. I don't think any one of us hasn't had a moment when everything wells up and the only thing we can do is cry. I think God made tears to wash away a woman's pain. I try to keep an upbeat attitude and look at tomorrow as an adventure no matter how bad things seem at the time. It doesn't make the pain or fear go away, it just helps to face the challenges.
We're here for you and for each other. I'm sending you a big hug.
Nancy B.
"I've wept in the night for the shortness of sight that to someone's needs I've been blind; but I've yet to feel a twinge of regret for being a little too kind." |
| Fiddlehead Farm |
Posted - Aug 03 2011 : 4:45:05 PM
I have those moments too! Go ahead and cry, it cleanses the soul. We understand.
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farmgirl sister #922
I ask not for a larger garden, but for finer seeds.
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White |
