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| melanie47601 |
Posted - Mar 24 2009 : 9:31:38 PM
I haven't been on much the last few weeks or so. Well facebook, but I don't know that I really count that. I haven't been on here to talk with all you wonderful women. I haven't been blogging. (I did do a lil catching up on that earlier.) And what's worse is I haven't hardly written to my bestest online friend in almost a month.
I feel like I have fallen off in this big rut. A big rut of the "I wants and I want it right nows" I don't know what has gotten into me. I have never been that way. I have always been happy with what I have and what I have has always been enough. And I've been pretty good at just livin in the moment. But here lately, I have felt like a ticking time bomb. I would like to put out some pretty flowers and maybe a small garden and dress up the yard a little at a time, but then I think, "What do I wanna go and do all that for? It's not like I own this little piece of ground I live on. And what if I move next year? Do I really want to put all that money and work into something that isn't even mine?" I have really been trying to kick this mood, but it just wants to keep hanign on.
Please girls any advice to get out of the rut? Sorry to be such a whiner.
Thanks,
Melanie
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| KayB |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 1:25:26 PM
I was going to plant and mulch and do whatever this weekend that would keep me outside, but we're expecting rain and snow and who knows what else this weekend. The high will be 50 on Fri and that will be early in the day. Meanwhile, I will play with my indoor plants. By the way, does anyone know how to fix the carbeurator on the rototiller? I know I've waited until late, but I plan on getting a vegggie garden in soon.
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| Farmgirlheart |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 1:08:03 PM
Oh Melanie! I know what you mean! I don't own, it's my parents home and I still really just am a guest here. I can't afford to move and I'm not sure where I want to move to anyway...aside from the fact I don't want to leave my mom when she still needs me(she is sick and lonely)so I feel like as I am putting down my literal roots of vegetables and such, I think, why bother. It's hard not to feel like this, especially knowing I don't want to remain even in the same part of my state but I try to live for the moment, sometimes I feel so much rage inside at being stuck here but I need so much to remember that I have things pretty great even if they are not my ideals. Look up, smell the flowers and play in some dirt, it's pretty amazing the way the outside world melts away! HUGS!!! |
| Alee |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 12:59:22 PM
*hugs* That's tough, but maybe the upside is that you might find a home for a bargain!
Alee
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| melanie47601 |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 11:58:06 AM
Thanks ladies! You are right I need to just get out and do it for the NOW. I think it is partly cabin fever.
Another part is feeling a little down. My fiance and I have been together, well it'll be three years in June, engaged for two years in September. We had originally planned to have our wedding this October. That also meant finding a home big enough for all of us this year too. I have a two bedroom mobile home. And it is getting really tight for me and my three kiddos in here. Then he and his son are living with his parents. So it's not like we can just move into together as we are right now. I got to thinking one day and thought that finding a home and doing a wedding would be entirley way too much for one year. (Not that we're planning a fancy wedding) So we talked and decided we would put the wedding off for another year and concentrate on a home. Well then you have this crazy economy mess and it has him really nervous. And even though he won't tell me exactly what he's worried about I can pretty much guess because it's right in the back of my mind too. I know deep down he's right to want to put this on hold. How do I put this? I guess it's I'm ready for us to "be together". That I don't like just having him around Thursday through Sunday, that I want him around everyday. It's not that I'm clingy and have to be right under his thumb every minute of the day. It's more the thought that at some time of the day I'm going to see him and get to snuggle or talk to him. I know it's not the end of the world to have to wait. I just have to get myself back in the frame of mind that waiting isn't so bad. :)
The trees are starting to bud, the grass is getting greener. I can't wait for the locust trees and honeysuckle in the back yeard to get going. Mmmmm those are two of my favorite smells. I just need to figure out what else I want to put out and pray the neighborhood dogs don't come and tear it all up. Thank you for all the advice.
Melanie
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| Calicogirl |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 10:59:58 AM
Melanie,
I too know how you feel. We are currently renting property and most likely will for several years. I am fine with it. I used to say "I'll just wait until we get our own property to....." . I realized that life is short and I should enjoy it now :) For our 4th year we are planting a good sized vegetable garden, flower & herb garden and plan on putting in a clothesline. No more waiting for me, I want to enjoy life now :) I want to make my home cozy whether I own it or not.
RX: Go to your local nursery and splurge. Buy some pretty flowers and some seeds or plants for a garden whether it be container gardening or raised beds. Do something to make you happy 
~Sharon
By His Grace, For His Glory |
| milkmaid |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 09:48:46 AM
We have rented so many places and at each place we planted trees it was a good way for me to get over that feeling of being unrooted.. even though we would move I felt like I had done something that would last and improve the place... I also did the garden boxes we bought a few watering tubs from a feed store and I planted in them they were big enough that they did not dry out and I was able to plant quite a bit. Tomatoes will do well in a 5 gallon bucket if you can shade the bucket a bit.. cherry tomatoes are easy to grow in containers and boy are they YUMMY!!
Heather
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Mother to five awesome kids, wife of 17 years and milk maid to two beautiful cows. Living the good life!!! |
| catscharm74 |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 09:07:40 AM
We are renters and I put in 1 large pot of fun seeds for Charlie to take care off and then I buy HOT pink flowers in pots that last all season. Those little pretty ladies keep me happy and the someday at bay. Also, I have a goal list for 2009 and I focus on that each time I get a little down. Priorities keep me straight and on the path. A cold beer and a spin in the hammock help too!! : )
Heather
Yee-Haw, I am a cowgirl!!!
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| StasiaSpins |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 09:04:39 AM
Live in the moment. YOU are worth doing things for NOW - things that will bring beauty and peace to your life. Time spent planting something is never time wasted - even if you aren't there to enjoy it someday, it might brighten another's day, or even a bee's!
We bought a house which promptly fell apart in huge ways after we moved in. For two years, while legal negotiations have been underway, I put off planting a garden, not knowing if this house was repairable or if we'd have to rebuild. Well, here it is, another spring, with NO bulbs coming up to brighten these cabin fever days...
NO MORE! I don't care if it's not going to be in the best place... this year I am planting veggies, bulbs, and I've already even ordered some TREES. Because what brings me the most joy is not the interior of a house, but being out in Nature and enjoying her changing adornments.
We can spend our lives waiting for the perfect time to begin something, to enjoy something, but that perfect moment is NOW, not in the future.
I think having those feelings at this time of year is very, very normal, so don't beat yourself up for those emotions - just remember that YOU are NOT your emotions and you can change them, or at least how you react to them. Be well!
ETA: perhaps if you ask, your landlord will go halves with you on the costs of your plants? And please excuse my grammar, I'm just having my first coffee today!
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| Lainey |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 07:59:17 AM
Melanie, I know how you feel. I've been like that for a bit. (((Hugs))) For me it was stress and a bit of cabin fever too. We went on a little trip last weekend and that helped a bit. But then I came home and saw everything that needs doing. We still are picking up limbs and stuff from that ice storm. We want to get our garden turned and might do it this weekend, Lord willing. Having a garden always perks me up a bit, watching it grow and then eating out of it. I'm going to get my flower beds in shape this year too. Last year I left two of them alone and some wildflowers came up I didn't know about.
I think when the weather gets prettier we all might feel a bit better. It's been a harsh winter this year so this spring should feel especially refreshing. I hope you're feeling better soon Melanie.
Farmgirl Sister #25
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| Contrary Wife |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 07:55:56 AM
Plant! I am living in a house I thought I would have been out of years ago!!! Seventeen to be exact! How I wished I would have planted an apple tree!!!
Teresa Sue
Farmgirl Sister #316
Planting Zone 3
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| Alee |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 07:32:50 AM
Niamh- I would recommend a container garden for you as well. The fresh healthy food that is our reward from a garden is so important! Maybe you could plant some things in the ground as well?
Alee
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| Niamh |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 07:18:30 AM
I'm feeling a bit the same way. We own our place, but my husband is beyond dissatisfied with his job and is job-hunting. This means that we could be moving next month or next year. This means that I don't know whether to put in a full garden (or any garden) or not. Gah!
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| AuntPammy |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 06:36:48 AM
I am with you Melanie, the doldrums really can take their toll on a girl!I agree with the other girls get outside, get some sunshine on your pretty lil' face and just do it! You'll be thanking yourself in a couple of months when you are surrounded by the sweet scent and beautiful colors of summer!
Don't worry about the future just be in the present.Do what makes you happy now! That's all that really matters. Most of all, know you have people that care about you.
"Keep your face to the sunshine and you will never see the shadow." Helen Keller
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| Nancy Gartenman |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 06:30:28 AM
own or rent, doesn't matter, one more flower just makes the world a tiny bit prettier.
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| a rose |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 06:26:48 AM
Sounds like cabin fever to me!
Remember me as a rose. |
| harmonyfarm |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 06:20:04 AM
Melanie, Melanie...We've all been there....I have been feeling alot like that lately also. (although, I don't pay rent, and the farm is almost paid off) I think it is the times we are living in that are perpetuating those feelings...I don't know how to put my finger on it exactly...but it is kinda like a feeling of "dread" or "doom" or "upcoming hardship" or something with me.....
I agree with Misty....DO IT! Once you get started and look at what you accomplished and later this summer you see all the colors and smell the smells...you'll feel sooooo much better! Make the space around you beautiful, no matter where you are or how you live.....
Debbie
"If you can't find the time to do it right...how will you find the time to do it over" |
| kmbrown |
Posted - Mar 25 2009 : 04:25:22 AM
LIVE FOR TODAY!!! Don't worry about tomorrow and for sure don't bother worrying about next year!! What do you want to see at your home today? DO IT!! |
| Alee |
Posted - Mar 24 2009 : 10:13:45 PM
Oh Melanie! I totally know what you mean! Doug and I are renters too! It is so hard to prepare a garden only to kiss it goodbye!
My "cure" for that? Buy some wild flower seeds for the places that you would really like to see dressed up. They are beautiful and a wonderful surprise when they flower. Also invest your money into a portable container garden! Buy some pots, and those long window box things. Plant to your heart's desire and plant a few single season items such as Sunflowers etc. If you might stay for a few years, go ahead and make flower beds and such. They will make you so happy while you are there- they are worth it!
We just moved in here, but plan on being her for several years. So today I planted my strawberries and chocolate mint in some abandoned flower beds. The silly people who lives here dug out flower beds all around the house and back filled them with about 10 inches of gravel! It is going to take me a while to dig those out, but by the time I do, I can back fill them with good soil and have really nice beds to plant carrots and flowers in!
Alee
Farmgirl Sister #8
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